Keep going with that belief Jim; in my opinion it will definitely give you a better experience of life. Social Phobics tend to be too Outer World focused, and are kind of waiting to see how other people react and will then let themselves be affected by what they think they see. In my view, and this has been working for me, we need to completely cut that out and just go Direct. When I say go Direct, I just mean live from who you know you are deep within; and the more you practice this (and Lord it takes practice and patience) the less you will be looking for Outer World Validation and feedback.
If you observe very confident and together people you will notice they pay little heed to others views of them; they just know that All is Well and they stick with that.
Excellent points Alan. This cutting out waiting to see how people react is so important and instead just living life directly is what is needed. I am sure a lot of people can relate that so often we get ourselves in such a state just in anticipation of a situation - worrying about what people will think of us, fearing the worst case scenario, and so come the situation we're so anxious and crippled by nerves that we just cannot perform and cope.
On friday I had to go into another office and ask for some papers from this girl. I got myself into such a state. I was fearing that she will judge me as ugly and negatively for how I look. I was so self conscious of her attention on me which made me so anxious, and then just asking for the papers was such an ordeal, I couldn't just be calm and myself and say it nicely, I probably came across as a bit nervous and weird.
The root of the anxiety is me living my life believing I am going to be judged as ugly and negatively whenever I am looked at - I hate living my life like this, like I am always being critically analysed and judged as horrible and inadequate, its not right or fair. These beliefs that I developed in my teenage years when a number of people always were putting me down and calling me ugly and calling me names it brainwashed me into believing that is what people think and see when they look at me. Its just so destructive. I have changed so much from how I looked back then and they were immature kids who were insensitive and cruel. I am living my life with beliefs that I am always being judged negatively just because of those kids. Whereas how can it be true when I've had some really nice positive comments in recent times about how I look.
I see a lot of this same thing in others. I know someone who fears being judged as stupid/dumb because her mother always said she was stupid and saying such dumb things as a child for years and years. She hates asking questions out loud or people seeing her work or attention on what she says because she absolutely 100% believes that people are going to judge her as stupid. And the reality is that she won't be judged as stupid and people aren't judging her as stupid, but she is so stuck in the old beliefs that whenever she says something she is in danger of being judged as stupid because that is what happened so many times.
But in reality adults are not judging others in this way at all. Prolonged negative judgements in the past really do seem to make you believe that is how everyone sees you but it is flawed. I mean if I was nasty enough to say something nasty out loud to someone, it does not mean that is how everyone else thinks about that person.