O my god.. :(

Falkor

Falkor

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Hi,

I'm at school now. And I crashed, I was feeling very lightheaded in the class room and my breathing went uneasy and I just stayed in class until the lesson was over. I had fun though with another class mate helping eachother on Mathematics.

So, when there was break, I was going to the bathroom and I ate bread and some fruit drinks. I thought it was nice, though my body ached.

So, my belly is still aching, my lunghs are painful, my my head is pain, and my feet and hands are almost paralyzed for feel. I don't know what it is. When I touch my cheecks, I don't feel them. and my mouth is getting purple, in the mirror... I was in shock when I saw myself. (Not about ugliness, people, I accepted the way I look, I'm not that bad looking, I look good.'')

Now, is the problem. In the toilet I suddenly started to bleed. My mouth got blood out of it, and I have pictures for proof and I will take the blood to my doctor. I'm terrified.. I can't even stand blood so I felt like getting dizzy.

I sat down and I tried to cough it up and more blood came out. Also my nose started to bleed when I snuggled up the green slime and a lot of brown crap came out of me and It hurts like hell, it's big and disgusting.

So, my neck feels like it's tensed, my whole body is about to faint..

And I thought, whatever I'll just follow these last classes.. I'm free soon.

Though.... My mom will pick me up soon - she's worried about me.
She wants to go to the doctor right ahead after school and I hope she can help me....

I'm scared to death now.

I'm not hypochondriac, I can relate to how ''they act'' drama.. and stuf.. But I have been worried since I have ''REAL SYMPTOMS'' and not just some heart racing fear, also i got this fear but i know there is ' at least something going on '

I feel like fainting all day.. And I fainted like a hundreds of time all ready.

What is going on....::(:::(:::(: I don't want people to get disgusted by my things, but I know I have a serious thing... Help? Or am I just afraid?

Is it just simple blood, hyperventilating, and me afraid to have a panic attack and get all symtpoms like getting sick being in fear and my body is stressy?

Sometimes I don't know wether it's a real thing, or it's just a weird panic attack, which I cause without wanting it (??))

Am I going to die? ::(: WTF.. I didn't have this before.. I have it since last week..
 
Twinkel<3

Twinkel<3

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Hunny you need to stay calm panicing only makes it worse it could be nothing but a simple viral infection, just try to stay possitive. Thinking about you xxxx
 
Section_31

Section_31

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Twinkel pretty much said it.

Try to stay calm, but see yuor doctor. Dont assume anything and try not to think too much, if you do you'll drive yourself crazy.

Keep us posted!
 
Phoenixx

Phoenixx

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Oh wow, sorry to hear Saskia. ::(: I know it's hard not to panic when you feel really sick and you don't know what's going on, but try to keep yourself calm. Panicking always makes it worse.

Did you have all these symptoms right after you ate? Because at first it sounded like an allergic reaction, but then the bleeding? That's pretty scary. See your doctor as soon as you can, but try not to think about everything too much. Hope you feel better soon. Keep us updated!
 
Remus

Remus

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Get to A&E if it feels that bad. I know panic attacks can bring on a lot of symptoms but it's always best to be safe. I gather you have free healthcare in the Netherlands so atleast you wouldn't have to pick up a big bill.
 
Falkor

Falkor

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" Twinkel<3:

Thank you dear, I hope it is just a simple infection. Though it's been here since a long while.. Infection has been one and on there since one year -/+. The infection, not the bloody mess. Hmm oh well, I have an apt for the lung checker. ::p:. So I hope they can tell me, how to cure this f*cky vicky monster.

You're right about the ''stay calm'' thing. I never seem to be understanding this when I'm in panic.. (like dóh) after it i think, why the heck was i so afraid... of this and that. Now, I might say that, but i'm quite sure I'll mess it up again, with all those firggin' bastard fears. I'm going plain crazy for scary stuff. Like a whiney little crying baby, I hate it... I hate myself for this,, 'cuz ppl used to call me like that just 'cuz it's really so not good to make it so hard on myself, though they understand I'm born this way to feel afraid of EVERYTHING alnost.. So they take it the way it is, though they want to get me out of that weird thinking.. Though, It's really hard for me, to be like that.. I will fight, as much as i can. :) - and for me it is serious, not a whining thing. maybe for people, who aren't like that, oh well. phobias are hard to get .

Remus:

Hi dear. :) What is the A&E, I've never heard of that.. Academic kinda thing?
Emergency? I don't think ppl would agree on that, but if it's something different tell me. ^^

Yes a panic attack can bring so many symptoms ,My goal would be : To be more Coolheaded. and relaxed!! though my feelings are freaking me out... I can't bear them.

Ya, they do. That's one of the good qualities of Holland, though the development in America is much more extended on practice and very much developed... Here it's getting better, though ''ANXIETY'' they just see as ''Normality'' though it's so much WORSE for ppl like me.

@Phoenixx: They've checked alergies for cats, I'm not allergic for them.. I wonder what else.. They are gonna check again, aight.

No, it can happen any way, mostly eating helps, for the good. :) of energized body, right? maybe I just ate the wrong thing in the morning.. I ate Cheerios, They are good though, or maybe it were the atmosphere. I remember ppl are cussing eachother at school, i'm very vulnerable to sounds and impressions, it keeps on hitting me:S.

:The Love Canada Man (lol had to make that one up):

Thanks, yeah I always drive myself to the edge, so I guess my mind is running too much.. My therapist told me today ''Just stay at the problem, just confront yourself with it, don't try to push it away, if you got panic attack you want to do this and that to get it away.. Even tried several of calming pills, she forbids them and my parents do too. So now it's up to me, the real life. they told me, i have to get through this, and it's seriously difficult..

Thanks eh, I'll keep y'all posted and we should really visit Starbucks, your wife can join us, and also my future canadian wife(?) oh well, my lovely girlfriend.:)

Starbucks is the boss.
 
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