Nickyinexile
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Hi,
I am Nicky, I am 25 years old and I am an American living in the UK with my british husband. I am also 40 weeks pregnant and expecting anytime now. I've had social anxiety for a good portion of my life, but within the last two years (since moving to the UK) it's become crippling.
I won't leave the flat on my own anymore, which means I will go days and days without leaving (Im on maternity leave and have been for 6 weeks, so I don't need to leave to go to work). The idea of leaving the flat for most reasons terrifies me (such as recently, my sis in law's birthday party. I worked myself up to the point of sobbing right before we had to leave and ended up making an excuse and not going). However, on the same token, I've been breaking down alot lately due to feeling stir crazy. I don't want to be in the flat, but at the same time I am so afraid to leave.
My husband is so supportive. He will do anything I ask him to in order to make situations more comfortable / tolerable. He understands and listens when i try to explain to him what I am feeling and why. But he has also become a sort of social crutch, and I cannot rely on him the rest of my life in order to just walk out the front door.
With this baby due any day now, I am so worried she will never see the sun shine or the green grass of the park because her mom is too afraid to go out.
I've reached a point where I know I need help, I just don't know what to do, or if it's even reasonable to hope this is fixable.
Thanks for listening,
Nicky
I am Nicky, I am 25 years old and I am an American living in the UK with my british husband. I am also 40 weeks pregnant and expecting anytime now. I've had social anxiety for a good portion of my life, but within the last two years (since moving to the UK) it's become crippling.
I won't leave the flat on my own anymore, which means I will go days and days without leaving (Im on maternity leave and have been for 6 weeks, so I don't need to leave to go to work). The idea of leaving the flat for most reasons terrifies me (such as recently, my sis in law's birthday party. I worked myself up to the point of sobbing right before we had to leave and ended up making an excuse and not going). However, on the same token, I've been breaking down alot lately due to feeling stir crazy. I don't want to be in the flat, but at the same time I am so afraid to leave.
My husband is so supportive. He will do anything I ask him to in order to make situations more comfortable / tolerable. He understands and listens when i try to explain to him what I am feeling and why. But he has also become a sort of social crutch, and I cannot rely on him the rest of my life in order to just walk out the front door.
With this baby due any day now, I am so worried she will never see the sun shine or the green grass of the park because her mom is too afraid to go out.
I've reached a point where I know I need help, I just don't know what to do, or if it's even reasonable to hope this is fixable.
Thanks for listening,
Nicky
