LittleLucy
Member
Hi everyone,
Very happy I found this site, I have suffered with social phobia from ad long as I can remember, my earliest memory was hiding under the table if anybody came Into our house other than my parents or sisters. I remember the horror I had at preschool crying and locking myselfithe bathroom at five, and would only go to school if I could wear a sombrero...yes an adult sized sombrero. I always felt safe as if I was hiding under it. I am 23 years old now, I am married, and have a one year old baby...I moved over to the Netherlands 3 years ago for a job, and it was a way to escape....escape from what I don't know...people who knew me? The truth is, I hae always been embarrassed about my self....and I don't know why. I met my husband on Xbox live....it was a Friday night and obviously I was in my apartment alone so decided to switch the old thing on, he is the only person in the world I can be myself me.....I hae known his parents for 3 years now....and I still can't manage to say more than two words....which causes yet mre embarresment, when I try I start to stutter....I can't be looked at without going bright red, which then of corse causes more trouble and anxiety.
I had to quit my job last year....it had gotten so worse that I couldn't even make it into the lift without throwing up, and counting to about a hundred....after the strength it took me to get upstairs.....I would not eave my desk all day, not even to go the bathroom or for a coffee.....I got so bad, that m anxiety started giving me attacks.
I think the problem is stress about being stressed.....I have no friends and feel extremely lonely....I thought as I got older, things would get easier....I've noticed that I can't even go to the supermarket, unless its just when it's opened so there are minimal people. If anybody talks to me, be that a cashier who asks is it cash or card, my heart goes to my throat and I just have to nod.
I was walden ring if anybodyi else is going through this, or has had this!
Also....it would be so nice to talk t somebody who understands what it's like, and it really is a serious issue.
Sorry to ramble on!
Lucy x
Very happy I found this site, I have suffered with social phobia from ad long as I can remember, my earliest memory was hiding under the table if anybody came Into our house other than my parents or sisters. I remember the horror I had at preschool crying and locking myselfithe bathroom at five, and would only go to school if I could wear a sombrero...yes an adult sized sombrero. I always felt safe as if I was hiding under it. I am 23 years old now, I am married, and have a one year old baby...I moved over to the Netherlands 3 years ago for a job, and it was a way to escape....escape from what I don't know...people who knew me? The truth is, I hae always been embarrassed about my self....and I don't know why. I met my husband on Xbox live....it was a Friday night and obviously I was in my apartment alone so decided to switch the old thing on, he is the only person in the world I can be myself me.....I hae known his parents for 3 years now....and I still can't manage to say more than two words....which causes yet mre embarresment, when I try I start to stutter....I can't be looked at without going bright red, which then of corse causes more trouble and anxiety.
I had to quit my job last year....it had gotten so worse that I couldn't even make it into the lift without throwing up, and counting to about a hundred....after the strength it took me to get upstairs.....I would not eave my desk all day, not even to go the bathroom or for a coffee.....I got so bad, that m anxiety started giving me attacks.
I think the problem is stress about being stressed.....I have no friends and feel extremely lonely....I thought as I got older, things would get easier....I've noticed that I can't even go to the supermarket, unless its just when it's opened so there are minimal people. If anybody talks to me, be that a cashier who asks is it cash or card, my heart goes to my throat and I just have to nod.
I was walden ring if anybodyi else is going through this, or has had this!
Also....it would be so nice to talk t somebody who understands what it's like, and it really is a serious issue.
Sorry to ramble on!
Lucy x
I see a psychologist, but only recently, it took me a while to pluck the courage up,..the first few times, I just wasn't ready so I kept postponing.
