nauseating boredom and loneliness

[no1]

does anyone ever get this? I was just lying in bed getting sick of the darkness and never ending repetitive cycle of stupidity. I feel sickeningly bored, anxious. excessive darkness. maybe it was the bowl I smoked.

I think I do get this even if I don't smoke though. I get sick of being in the house. no sun, no life, no hope, no nothing. And it's not even my thoughts, it's my environment, my life! it's all too overwhelming. I get sick to my stomach. I feel dread. I feel like my life is never going to get better.

i notice this also happens when I'm exposed to too much darkness. I feel like crying I feel like making stupid noises and groaning like a weirdo.

 

[saeriyas]

I think something similar has happened to me before, and I don't smoke.
I hate the feeling that 'nothing is happening' in my life. -That time is passing, and things are staying the same, and I haven't changed.

 

[BashfulDoll]

i listen to music.. right now Nelly Furtado LOL im like a bird i wanna fly away

 

[Psychedelicious]

Yes. Sickening Boredness is my LIFE. Every day every day every day every day every day....

 

[recluse]

I have enough hobbies to get on with, but the thing that gets me is solitude. It's strange because although i like being on my own i get frustrated too.

 

[danstelter]

First off, stop smoking because it only increases anxiety (it provides short-term relief, but long-term harms your anxiety), and this in turn may be feeding your dread/depression. Next, it's time to start to find some hobbies that you enjoy that get you out. Consider volunteering; try those things that you always wanted to do but never did. If something doesn't work out, try something else because something else will work out! Those things that don't work out will at least give you an interesting story to tell!
Just keep doing this until you find what the heck it is that you enjoy, and from there life will get much better!

 

[Walk]

Damn, the responses are getting more and more optimistic and helpful lately.

Awesome.

I've been practicing the guitar for a few weeks, acoustic, and despite early frustration, I'm finally getting the hang of it; my fingers are starting to get sore

 

[Walk]

Yes. Sickening Boredness is my LIFE. Every day every day every day every day every day....

Overall, I gotta admit that I'm still a scared, little bored punk too. Not that you're a punk. You look cute.

 

[weak]

Some people spend all their time out having fun. Others spend all their time working towards their future. If you can't do one, do the other.

When I moved out to LA 3 years ago, away from my few remaining friends, my social life went from meager to flat out dead. I had absolutely nothing to do with all my time. The options we're pretty clear. I couldn't have any fun, so instead I decided to be as productive as possible. The idea is to improve other aspects of your life (school, career) so that when the opportunity to have fun finally arrives, you'll be in a much better position to do so.

Having no social life honestly isn't all that bad if you're career oriented. There's no distractions and no drama. You're able to focus on yourself and your own problems, rather than someone elses. Without any of the distractions that a busy social life causes, it's a shitoad easier to accomplish your goals and move forward.

One of my closest friends chose a life of partying over any real future. He went off to college, at his parents expense, and instead of going to class he just partied day and night. In the past 4 years since his high school graduation, he's accomplished nothing. And now with all of his friends growing up and moving on in life, his fun is finally coming to an end. He's back living at home, unemployed and can't drive because of the 2 DUI's he got in the year previous.

So when I think about all the 'fun' that I didn't have, I just remember his outcome and then I dont feel so bad about it anymore.

 

[Naniwazu]

You can't do anything unless you sort yourself out first. Get rid of the negative self-image. It helps nothing. Replace it by a more positive one.

Also I can't stress the importance of action! Do anything, but don't do nothing. The latter only leads to more negative thoughts and lethary in general.

There are plenty of other things you can do...there is a book by David D Burns called 'The Feeling Good Handbook', I don't know whether you've heard of it? It's quite good actually...try it! It's helped me, quite a bit actually...

Any change takes time, I guess. No guarantees anything will happen, but you basically have two options in life: Either do nothing and get nothing or do something (anything!) and maybe you'll be lucky at get somewhere. At least that's the way I look at it...

 

[no1]

yea my life's a mess.. I don't even know how I'll be able to have a social life if I don't have a more organized life, but at the same time I feel like the loneliness is killing me and making me worse. plus the smoking might be damaging me quite a bit because I might abuse it and my life's not too good to be smoking. it's just been a cycle of nothing getting better. I don't go out, I'm afraid to do simple things like taking out the garbage, walking to the store, or just plain old taking walks. this area is not all that fun either it's just concrete buildings and no parks no attractions, only a mall where gits go. no trees, just blah... the nearest park I gotta drive, and when I get there I dont know what to do other than to sit down? Because I don't play sports. I exercises, but not there. I have so many restrictions that people don't understand... and they are restrictions which really keep me from doing things.. if I really DID those these though I wouldn't be any better, I might get worse and go crazy, in public. I do exercise but I don't get better by this. The excercises I do first of all are annoying as hell to other people because they use a lot of resources, that's beside the point. I don't even sleep so how can I even properly do exercises or do anything at all?

I feel like if I start getting my life back "together" i'll work myself out until complete exhaustion and insanitty and life doesn't get better and people still are the same way, they're going to leave me alone, never consider me, I'm going to be left out in every situation possible, etc. etc. etc.

blahhh...

but yeah thanks for all the suggestions... all the sh*t I need and probably already knew but felt like I just couldn't because I'm so messed up. It's a wonder how can people even put up with me.

regards

 

[206Raider]

damn the threadstarter said everything that I do and feel no homo haha. I gotta stay hgih cuz I was suicidal before I started smokin so until the doctor really helps me (and I been going) I feel I got too smoke

 

[danstelter]

if I really DID those these though I wouldn't be any better, I might get worse and go crazy, in public

This is where you are wrong. The anxiety, at first, when you start challenging yourself to do things, is worse. Maybe for the first couple months or so, anyway. However, if you keep at it and keep trying to change your thinking, your thinking does change, and when it changes to more positive and realistic thinking, you will find that your anxiety reduces and that things that were so scary before aren't as scary as you thought.

For example, instead of thinking "I might get worse and go crazy," you can challenge this by instead thinking "I might get worse and go crazy, but really, I am looking forward to going out and doing this, and eventually this anxiety will pass and I will get better." After saying this to yourself, even though you don't believe it, after a couple months it will become habit to think and your anxiety will reduce, making life much better.

You CAN do these things - you just don't think that you can. What have you got to lose? After all, if you don't try, you know what will happen and where you'll be anyway, so you might as well give it a shot!