Falkor
1
Hello,
First off, english isn't my first language, so sorry if it sounds a bit silly.
I am going to write what's on my mind, it's gonna be a vent, because i'm feeling low.
My world is small ~
When I was 15 my SA has hit me, I couldn't even go to the mall, the stores, school, anything for that matter. I had this huge fear for 3 years, so I basically lost friends, i lost school, never had a job and I was only on the computer.
Now I'm 21 years old, and I still realize my world is small. I have no school. I have never had a job. And I wish I was more. I really hate this feeling and it drives me nuts. I want to have a goal, not wake up everyday late and have a pointless life. It's all because of the demon SOCIAL ANXIETY. and I can't take that no more. I really want to do more in life.
I did went to school again, for 2 years. between 15 and 21 years. But I didn't finish it because I got suicidal in 2013. But I did learn a lot at school, so I'm happy about that, though. I love learning. But now I'm kinda in the same sitaution as before, all though I do like going to the mall now, I am not afraid of leaving the house anymore. I managed to make a best friend in town, so It's getting a bit better.
But what should I do, to make my world less small? I still wake up late, I have nothing to go to, and It makes me miserable.
Any advice, and have people here been feeling the same?
Ugh I hate my english, hope it doesn't bother you all as much as it bothers myself.
X
First off, english isn't my first language, so sorry if it sounds a bit silly.
I am going to write what's on my mind, it's gonna be a vent, because i'm feeling low.
My world is small ~
When I was 15 my SA has hit me, I couldn't even go to the mall, the stores, school, anything for that matter. I had this huge fear for 3 years, so I basically lost friends, i lost school, never had a job and I was only on the computer.
Now I'm 21 years old, and I still realize my world is small. I have no school. I have never had a job. And I wish I was more. I really hate this feeling and it drives me nuts. I want to have a goal, not wake up everyday late and have a pointless life. It's all because of the demon SOCIAL ANXIETY. and I can't take that no more. I really want to do more in life.
I did went to school again, for 2 years. between 15 and 21 years. But I didn't finish it because I got suicidal in 2013. But I did learn a lot at school, so I'm happy about that, though. I love learning. But now I'm kinda in the same sitaution as before, all though I do like going to the mall now, I am not afraid of leaving the house anymore. I managed to make a best friend in town, so It's getting a bit better.
But what should I do, to make my world less small? I still wake up late, I have nothing to go to, and It makes me miserable.
Any advice, and have people here been feeling the same?
Ugh I hate my english, hope it doesn't bother you all as much as it bothers myself.
X