cobalt_bluester
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My workplace is becoming hell for me, as I strongly feel that hardly anybody likes me there, and also my illness with depression and social phobia is making my life unbearable, and not worth living. I feel really uncomfortable with a number of people in the office, and can sense that they sense that maybe something is wrong with me, or I am different to the 'norm' in some way. Hell, I really don't know what they think of me but know they can't really like, or respect me at all because I get funny looks of them sometimes and they just don't speak to me much at all, and yet freely speak with other co-workers. I hate, really hate making non verbal eye contact as I am always aware exactly of what my eyes are doing and it becomes strained and unatural.
I feel that a bad situation is made worse by their poor attitude towards me, and their lack of empathy and understanding comes across very clearly. They are aware that I have depression and yet I still feel they don't understand how horrible this is for me. On several ocassions I have been told to 'cheer up' or people have said that I am very quiet - but how am I supposed to answer that it seems a very silly question i.e. should I respond with "Yes, you're right I am quiet", or maybe, "Sorry"!?!
Anyway, all this is driving me to despair and I don't know what I should / can do. I would look for another job but I am 37 and there are few opportunities of quality jobs in this area for me. I feel like I have reached the end of the road and don't see much point in my life as it is. I am a troubled person who is a bad fit for this society. Can anybody help me with this or offer me some sound advice as I don't know what else I can do.
I feel that a bad situation is made worse by their poor attitude towards me, and their lack of empathy and understanding comes across very clearly. They are aware that I have depression and yet I still feel they don't understand how horrible this is for me. On several ocassions I have been told to 'cheer up' or people have said that I am very quiet - but how am I supposed to answer that it seems a very silly question i.e. should I respond with "Yes, you're right I am quiet", or maybe, "Sorry"!?!
Anyway, all this is driving me to despair and I don't know what I should / can do. I would look for another job but I am 37 and there are few opportunities of quality jobs in this area for me. I feel like I have reached the end of the road and don't see much point in my life as it is. I am a troubled person who is a bad fit for this society. Can anybody help me with this or offer me some sound advice as I don't know what else I can do.