i don't know where to begin to share my story because i've pretty much kept this problem to myself all these years. i thought i was alone until i stumbled upon this forum, and when i did it was as if this huge wave of sadness, pain, years of suppressed feelings but mainly pure relief just came pouring out.
hearing these heart felt stories and support from people here just made me feel like i found a home that i never knew of.
if i could just share?.. basically:
- i've had HH (hands, feet, underarms) since i was a 13? i'm now 25
- cannot confide in my family and friends (w/c i don't want to ellaborate on)
- have gone through depression (more than once)
- sadly have lost my faith (still struggling though)
- have developed chronic insomnia (which i think is mainly due to subconscious psychological stress from this HH)
- i smoke weed when i have supply because i've found relief in doing so. also drinking loads of alcohol. (fortunately i never became an alcoholic, nor am i a pothead.. well maybe at one point i was hehe, but eventually it got too expensive and i couldn't live high on a daily basis whilst maintaining the grades in college)
- constantly regretting everyday of my life on opportunities that i've missed out on in the past and continue to be missing out on to date
- have plenty of times questioned my existence in the world (this sounds crazy i know, but HH has driven me to that point)
- don't want to opt for ETS, have tried driclor and other roll ons (but it made my skin burn so i stopped)
- just moved to china so it doesn't help that i'm trying to look for such a rare (ionto) device in a country who's language i'm still trying to learn
...basically i have lost my will to live life. everyday is a constant struggle for me, and i am just tired. so so tired. i recently went spiraling into another episode of depression recently which (fortunately?) brought me here. if anyone can hear me and help, i would be immensely grateful.
i'd like to start by trying SAGE TEA. i've been reading a lot of articles the past few days. some saying it can be drank, others saying it should be topical and not drank because it can pose threats. i don't know who and what to believe. (i am slightly anemic and smoke cigs once in a while, if that's any relevant to drinking sage?)
Thank you, everyone here, for posting your stories and your support. I hope to find more hope here..
hearing these heart felt stories and support from people here just made me feel like i found a home that i never knew of.
if i could just share?.. basically:
- i've had HH (hands, feet, underarms) since i was a 13? i'm now 25
- cannot confide in my family and friends (w/c i don't want to ellaborate on)
- have gone through depression (more than once)
- sadly have lost my faith (still struggling though)
- have developed chronic insomnia (which i think is mainly due to subconscious psychological stress from this HH)
- i smoke weed when i have supply because i've found relief in doing so. also drinking loads of alcohol. (fortunately i never became an alcoholic, nor am i a pothead.. well maybe at one point i was hehe, but eventually it got too expensive and i couldn't live high on a daily basis whilst maintaining the grades in college)
- constantly regretting everyday of my life on opportunities that i've missed out on in the past and continue to be missing out on to date
- have plenty of times questioned my existence in the world (this sounds crazy i know, but HH has driven me to that point)
- don't want to opt for ETS, have tried driclor and other roll ons (but it made my skin burn so i stopped)
- just moved to china so it doesn't help that i'm trying to look for such a rare (ionto) device in a country who's language i'm still trying to learn
...basically i have lost my will to live life. everyday is a constant struggle for me, and i am just tired. so so tired. i recently went spiraling into another episode of depression recently which (fortunately?) brought me here. if anyone can hear me and help, i would be immensely grateful.
i'd like to start by trying SAGE TEA. i've been reading a lot of articles the past few days. some saying it can be drank, others saying it should be topical and not drank because it can pose threats. i don't know who and what to believe. (i am slightly anemic and smoke cigs once in a while, if that's any relevant to drinking sage?)
Thank you, everyone here, for posting your stories and your support. I hope to find more hope here..