Wheeler
Member
Here is an idea I'm just starting to try to get my head around. Naturally, I was picked on all through school, Junior High being the worst. It wasn't so much physical abuse - I was too tall to fit into a locker - but mental and emotional. Name calling, rejection, ridicule, the usual stuff. I have always blamed myself for being picked on. If I was a better person, smarter, less scared, funnier, cooler, better looking, if I just wasn't me I wouldn't have been hurt so much. I still feel that way today. If someone hurts me it's my fault because I did something wrong. Could this be distorted thinking? I think I have this seed of a different way of seeing this and maybe if I could see how other people put it into words I could grab on to a different way of seeing things. Or am I doing everything wrong and I do deserve to be hurt all the time? Either way I'd love to hear what others have to say.