And now it is stunting the little confidence that I have!!!
I hate the fact that I feel confident to speak up in class but I can't because I know that the time they'll look at me, I know that I'll blush.
I attended the speech class this morning and we're asked to talk with our partner (who was randomly chosen for us). And he's a guy. And the moment he started looking at me, I know I blushed!!! Effing hell!!! He might think I have a crush on him or something. And I couldn't have eye contact because I know I'll blush again. So in short I acted like a total retard, answering his questions but only giving him a quick glance.
And you know what? Now we have to give an oral report next week in front of the class!! This is BS! Now,all the students will witness my blushing episodes. If only I don't have this condition, I can pretend my anxiety in a breeze. But no! The more I try to hide it, the more I'll blush. My own body is sabotaging me!!! I am so pissed!!
I think I'm getting worse! I used to tolerate looking at people's eyes but now I can't help but shy away because I'll blush. What the heck happened to me!
I hate the fact that I feel confident to speak up in class but I can't because I know that the time they'll look at me, I know that I'll blush.
I attended the speech class this morning and we're asked to talk with our partner (who was randomly chosen for us). And he's a guy. And the moment he started looking at me, I know I blushed!!! Effing hell!!! He might think I have a crush on him or something. And I couldn't have eye contact because I know I'll blush again. So in short I acted like a total retard, answering his questions but only giving him a quick glance.
And you know what? Now we have to give an oral report next week in front of the class!! This is BS! Now,all the students will witness my blushing episodes. If only I don't have this condition, I can pretend my anxiety in a breeze. But no! The more I try to hide it, the more I'll blush. My own body is sabotaging me!!! I am so pissed!!
I think I'm getting worse! I used to tolerate looking at people's eyes but now I can't help but shy away because I'll blush. What the heck happened to me!