My awkward behaviour, can't stand it!!!!!!!!!

[Falkor]

I just had a performance. (yeah you won't believe this) I sang on stage with my girl band.. Which i perform with in a little room where i feel more at ease.. Though this time we had to perform for like 1000's of people looking at us..

So i was at the stage, and they told me i was an amazing singer and such afterwards.. And a strange girl even told me that I will become famous one day, she's sure of..

Though, also some ppl said to me ''Don't be so insecure, you're great!''

When I was standing there at stage.. I felt like my body was passing out.. I still could sing and to the thing.. But I also mumbled and lost my words and then shook my head like I was handicapped..

Ya know what I'm trying to say is.

I have ****ed up STRANGE behaviour due to SA..

My mum told me afterwards ''Girl you did it, but you had those BIG HUGE FRIGTENED EYES THAT PEOPLE CUD SEE YOU HAVE AN ANXIETY DISORDER, JUST BE RELAXED AND YOU WONT HAVE THAT ATTENTION ON YOU''

God dammit, she's right.. but the prob is.. I always have this..

In bus, when i'm in front of a stranger, I always keep on look,ing at the person with big eyes, hyperventilating, getting panic attacks and being a nerve wrack, and feel like my body is weak and shaking like hell.. I LOOKED HANDICAPPED ON THAT GOD DAMN STAGE :'(

So, the question is, How can I stop looking scared to people when they are observing me.. I even have this with my parents, when they look when i'm eating, I eat like a pig, or at least, feel like it. And I couldn't dance at stage at all, because if I would, I would die from humilitation.

Help??!

THIS is the biggest problem according to my SA. I think I look like a paranoid creep all time

I can't live with this behaviour any longer.. I MAKE MYSELF LOOK LIKE A FOOL.... IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY.. ITS EMBARRASSING LIKE HELL

 

[DeadmanWalking]

Don't overthink and don't criticize yourself. Whenever I feel my self-consciousness rising, I usually just stop my train of thought and go to my "happy place". Just something to take my mind off of the self-consciousness. Another thing that could help is learning how to laugh at yourself. If you think you're acting funny, then take some time to laugh at yourself and find some good humor to it. It'll lessen the tension in you.

And good job on the performance.

 

[da_illest101]

Congrats on the performance. I'm sure with time you won't look scare as you get more confident. Try to practice facial expression in front of a mirror too

 

[ForeverTheWeirdKid]

You can overcome this by Learning to love who you are, people will judge you either way. It's mandatory that you be comfortable with your flaws for you and only you.

 

[shahnawaz STOP!!!]

girl u shud give urself a treat for the big work u did tat most of us wont do coz of our SA so congrats n i can totally relate to staring thing coz this is wat i do wen i go out n if smeone iz lukin at me at tat situation i cant help myself not staring at them n yup i do get annoyed wen any of my family membr luk at me withot reason . .... want to get rid of SA coz it makes me terible during perfomance

 

[crystaldawn]

I so can relate to you. I'm extremeley awkward myself, but you have some balls to sing in front of that many people! Congrats!

 

[Ashiene]

Most people get stage fright. This is why during a performance, only the lights are turned on above the performers' heads, and the lights over the audience are turned off. This is so that only the audience can see the performers but the performers cannot see the audience, making it more comfortable and less anxious for the performers to do their thing.

 

[powerfulthoughts]

When people are looking at you on stage, don't interpret anything at all. Not how they are perceiving you, not how you look, nothing. Just be aware of them. Just be aware of the facts. You are on stage singing, and people are enjoying the moment. That's it. Any negative interpretation of yourself, of others, is only controlling your behavior. You are focused on negative interpretations, and then attaching those interpretations to your behavior, causing malfunction of your natural energy and focus. Change the flow and direction.

This is my current train of thought in trying to overcome. I seem to travel through various methods, so yeah, that's my current 2 cents.