Boby
Well-known member
Warning,boring rant!
A few weeks ago I saw a documentary on Discovery Channel about drug addiction.They were presenting the case of a man from UK (I think), he was addicted to a synthetic drug (don't remember the name) that over time it will affect the urinary bladder ,in a very bad way.
So this guy was using this drug every day,after a while he was urinating blood and with extreme pain but he just couldn't stop using the drug.He eventually ended up in the hospital ,but the doctor's couldn't do anything to save his bladder and they removed it and tried to reconstruct it from a piece of his intestine.But what really shocked me was still to come ,after he got out from hospital with he's health severely damaged he admitted that he had only one thing in his mind,that's right the drug and he even bought and used some.When I saw and heard that I couldn't believe/understand why would a man go trow so much just to get something that was obviously hurting him.
I was quick to judge that man but now I kinda understand why he did it because I'm addicted too,not to drugs but instead I'm addicted to my bad habits,I'm addicted to not doing the things I'm supposed to do,I'm addicted to not respecting the promises I made to myself.
For me there is always a "maybe tomorrow","not now","I don't feel like doing it","I'm not in the mood" even though I know I will get in trouble or it will affect my life in a bad way if I don't do that thing.I feel like I'm completely irresponsible about my actions or lack of actions sometimes just like that drug-junkie I talk about.
A few weeks ago I saw a documentary on Discovery Channel about drug addiction.They were presenting the case of a man from UK (I think), he was addicted to a synthetic drug (don't remember the name) that over time it will affect the urinary bladder ,in a very bad way.
So this guy was using this drug every day,after a while he was urinating blood and with extreme pain but he just couldn't stop using the drug.He eventually ended up in the hospital ,but the doctor's couldn't do anything to save his bladder and they removed it and tried to reconstruct it from a piece of his intestine.But what really shocked me was still to come ,after he got out from hospital with he's health severely damaged he admitted that he had only one thing in his mind,that's right the drug and he even bought and used some.When I saw and heard that I couldn't believe/understand why would a man go trow so much just to get something that was obviously hurting him.
I was quick to judge that man but now I kinda understand why he did it because I'm addicted too,not to drugs but instead I'm addicted to my bad habits,I'm addicted to not doing the things I'm supposed to do,I'm addicted to not respecting the promises I made to myself.
For me there is always a "maybe tomorrow","not now","I don't feel like doing it","I'm not in the mood" even though I know I will get in trouble or it will affect my life in a bad way if I don't do that thing.I feel like I'm completely irresponsible about my actions or lack of actions sometimes just like that drug-junkie I talk about.