lonely_drummer
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It's hard, walking down the street, eating at school, public speaking, making eye contact or just meeting someone new. Simple, everyday tasks are chores. There's only one social behavior I can actually conquer and that's playing live shows with my band. I can't do basic things like going to class without the fear of having to talk to someone, but then I can step on stage and nobody in the crowd exists, none of their glaring eyes or judgmental thoughts piercing through my skin. Music is a powerful and beautiful force. I could not survive without it. It is my fuel. Whenever I go see my friends, I have to listen to my Ipod on low so I can hear the music and listen to my friends at the same time. It soothes me and helps me relax because I feel this anxiety even around my closest friends. I absolutely love music, it keeps me moving forward, waiting, for something new exciting. Does music have this effect on you? Did it save your life like it saved mine?