RandyMarsh
Active member
OK so I have just down a 2 week course (involuntarily because, my benefits will be stopped if I don't go.) I didn't speak to one person. Afterwards I was so depressed I went and bought a load of mephedrone which I haven't done in over a year. I went crazy and shouted at my aunt who raised me because my mum died when I waas young, so she in not speaking to me and I am not welcome in their house anymore. I have no one no friends girlfriend no one to speak to. I have never felt this low even when my mum died. I had a proper breakdown last night and my dad was just completely indifferent, he doesn't think social anxiety is a 'real problem'. I am frustraated depressed lonely my life is going nowhere. Im about to spend another weeekend alone. I wish I could just have some friends. I am in such aa bad place my mind is so damaged I cant think straaight. Also I get these intense rages at the world I don't know how to deal with them.