I'm always anxious it seems and I sat down and really thought about what I wanted out of life, myself and my friends. It hit me that I'm anxious because I'm not doing anything with myself. I feel like I've done nothing and therefore I have nothing to show. It bothers me that I use to be acceptably social and am not anymore, it upsets me that I've never been able to be spontaneous or have a cut loose attitude. Being carefree just isn't in me sometimes. I recently dated this guy, a hippie of sorts and we would talk about traveling all over the place.
I think this summer before I go back to school in August, I'm going to do just that. I would love to gather my friends, smoke a bunch of weed and just see the country. Maybe it's just a fantasy but I like the idea and for right now it's kinda giving me hope to change things. Mix them up.
I think this summer before I go back to school in August, I'm going to do just that. I would love to gather my friends, smoke a bunch of weed and just see the country. Maybe it's just a fantasy but I like the idea and for right now it's kinda giving me hope to change things. Mix them up.