thanks johno, for bringing a little positivity in here.
spw is a great place to be honest about how you're feeling when maybe you can't be anywhere else (that's how it is for me). and as much as SA, OCD, depression, etc can suck and seem like impossible obstacles that only make life's other issues that much more difficult, there is something to be said for TRYING. having a defeatist attitude doesn't help anyone and certainly doesn't help anyone create positive change in their lives. rather than wallowing in our own self pity, why not just try even in tiny little ways to improve our situation or attitude?
easier said than done, i know. but i'm not willing to give in to the s***** things that have happened to me and give in to feeling helpless and hopeless. nothing anyone can say on here is going to change my f***** up past, bring back my friends and family who’ve passed away, pay my overdue rent, cure my SA or make me love myself. but by knowing that i’m not alone and caring enough about myself to want to change, i can start to try.
sorry if this is what no one wants to hear. i love you all.