its ok lol no worries , but i will say if you just go on with a negative attitude about finding a partner you might not find 1 , try to be a little more positive about it
your in your 40s you say well thats not old , your not 65 your still young , there are lots of people in your situation , iamthenra on here is in his 40s your not alone , i know sa is a horrible thing to have and it makes finding a partner even more difficult , but that doesnt mean its impossible
they say there is someone for evreyone out there lol that includes you , so keep trying dont give up your dream , peace gazza