dannyboy65
Well-known member
I've been losing myself more then I have in a long time. It's becoming so bad that instead of just voices, I see things now too. I see the ground move or a wall. I see shadows of things that aren't there. The voices in my head scream and they are not quiet anymore, they don't whisper. I can't sleep without having nightmares.
Today I broke down in front of my girlfriend...... I cried in her arms... I told her I didn't want to be alone anymore that this place I live is tormenting me. I told her the voices are screaming, they are as I'm writing this. She loves me, I could see it in her eyes, she is concerned for me. I'm willing to fight this, I just don't know how too. She told me she would fight with me every step of the way, because she wanted who she fell in love with back. I want to be that person again and I will try my absolute hardest for her, for our boy, and for myself. I need to fight this so I can build a future out of fear. It's going to be a long road, but I know I won't be alone, which helps a lot. I just wish I didn't have to have this curse.
Today I broke down in front of my girlfriend...... I cried in her arms... I told her I didn't want to be alone anymore that this place I live is tormenting me. I told her the voices are screaming, they are as I'm writing this. She loves me, I could see it in her eyes, she is concerned for me. I'm willing to fight this, I just don't know how too. She told me she would fight with me every step of the way, because she wanted who she fell in love with back. I want to be that person again and I will try my absolute hardest for her, for our boy, and for myself. I need to fight this so I can build a future out of fear. It's going to be a long road, but I know I won't be alone, which helps a lot. I just wish I didn't have to have this curse.