it feels like dying

Falkor

Falkor

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hi,

as most of u probably know.. i´m in a mental hospital... i stayed at home for 2 days now.. and i had a panic attack.. my parents went very angry.. and now its the second day and there still is a negative atmosphere.. they dont say a word to me.. and im like sitting with tears in my eyes looking at them.
and nobody sees my tears...
Today i need to go back to the mental hospital again and tonight i have to be in the group .. thats so hard for me.. i cant even sit in front of people, because they can see my anxiety.
I´m so afraid... I dont know what to do..
I wanted to show my mom something on the pc.. and she says shes busy.. i have the feeling that everybody is angry at me.. I dont know what to do.
Maybe its just my imationation.. but they went really angry yesterday and i still feel so anxious.. They said ''YOU HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! YOU NEED TO BE IN THE GROUP! IF YOU DONT DO IT YOU DONT WANT TO GET OVER IT!'' it makes me feel so sad..
Help :'(
mostly my parents are the sweetest parents ever.. they hug me,, they help me, but when i have a panic attack it totally changes.. then they are stressed.. and im outta control..
Oh why :(
 
Dronee

Dronee

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Hang in there... our thoughts are with you. It's not much, but if you want to show something, you can always share it with us :) .....
 
x000x

x000x

Well-known member
They're saying you have to do those things they're asking of you, but they don't understand that when mental disorders are really bad, not all people can actually help themselves by forcing themselves to do what's "healthy". When a mental disorder reaches a certain stage you might not be able to help yourself at all. It's just like if you had a physical illness and were unable to do certain things. It's how things are unfortunately. Not an exciting or cheerful thing to think about.
 
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friendchen

Well-known member
x000x said:
They're saying you have to do those things they're asking of you, but they don't understand that when mental disorders are really bad, not all people can actually help themselves by forcing themselves to do what's "healthy". When a mental disorder reaches a certain stage you might not be able to help yourself at all. It's just like if you had a physical illness and were unable to do certain things. It's how things are unfortunately. Not an exciting or cheerful thing to think about.
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I had loads of anxieties before and I've overcome most of them (certain things left and I'm trying).. I have never had therapy as I know I can pass them myself.. But I'm always stressed out... I feel like something is pressing against my chest and its hard... I try to ignore it most of the time and do things that I have to do...(if I tell somebody,, my classmates or my siblings or my parents.. they won't believe me).. now due to recent cause, I'm having insomnia, and I'm losing weight and dark circles around my eyes.. I don't mind it very much if I don't have a class in morning.. My sleep time is 5 hours when I have class in the morning.. and its hard as I can't sleep at night.. and I skipped breakfast nearly everyday as I have to leave home at 6 am(I don't live with parents, so no meal)... I'm getting weaker and the pulling in my chest getting stronger and I'm trying to ignore it.. Do you think it would become worse??? Do you think trying to ignore and move on is a healthy thing???(coz it really feels bad at times)

To Flowergirlie,,

I'm so sorry to post in my problem in your thread.. hope you would understand it.. I can't give you advice coz I haven't faced a panic attack yet.. but I wish you the best and hope you'll be alright soon..at least.. you got your parents to talk to :)
 
Hellhound

Hellhound

Super Moderator
Isn't it posible for any of the docs to talk to your family? They probably need some education in the matter.
 
Remus

Remus

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Staff member
Flowergirlie said:
hi,

as most of u probably know.. i´m in a mental hospital... i stayed at home for 2 days now.. and i had a panic attack.. my parents went very angry.. and now its the second day and there still is a negative atmosphere.. they dont say a word to me.. and im like sitting with tears in my eyes looking at them.
and nobody sees my tears...
Today i need to go back to the mental hospital again and tonight i have to be in the group .. thats so hard for me.. i cant even sit in front of people, because they can see my anxiety.
I´m so afraid... I dont know what to do..
I wanted to show my mom something on the pc.. and she says shes busy.. i have the feeling that everybody is angry at me.. I dont know what to do.
Maybe its just my imationation.. but they went really angry yesterday and i still feel so anxious.. They said ''YOU HAVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! YOU NEED TO BE IN THE GROUP! IF YOU DONT DO IT YOU DONT WANT TO GET OVER IT!'' it makes me feel so sad..
Help :'(
mostly my parents are the sweetest parents ever.. they hug me,, they help me, but when i have a panic attack it totally changes.. then they are stressed.. and im outta control..
Oh why :(
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Maybe it's worth asking your shrink to educate them how they can assist you as I'm sure they really care but have no idea how to deal with this.
 
illuminationSP

illuminationSP

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I don't talk to my father (he was violent and then eventually abandoned me, I don't know where he is now) and my mom chooses not to understand what I'm going through and refuses to hold herself accountable for her major failures as a mother (while pointing the finger at me), so when I was recently in the mental hospital and crisis house, I received absolutely no support from my "parents". It has always been that way, nothing new. Being in such a place, with your problems staring back at you and feeling as if most of your team has turned their back on you at the same time... you're absolutely right, it does feel like dying. For me, everything seems to become so frozen, except for the outrage or wretchedness inside. I know that feeling and I can't even stand to recall it as I type this. With this new outpatient program that I'm in, I'm also having to do group therapy but I have already been absent because it's so much to ask of me right now. Yes, your parents may be having difficulty with your situation, but remember, SO ARE YOU. I do believe they could be more nurturing and understanding.
 
Falkor

Falkor

1
Thank u all :) But don't misunderstand me, my parents are great folks :)
They help me and care for me.. but sometimes they are just tired of the situation.. it happens over and over again so they react with frustration.
but they never have the meaning to hurt me.. :)
They told me that.. but sometimes yeah they can be rude.. :[
and words control me alot.. so that hurts alot
 
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