recluse said:
I have only had two hours sleep for the past few days. This morning i didn't get to sleep untill 4 am and i had to get up at 6 am! I can't stop intrusive thoughts going around my mind.
You and me both. I've suffered from insomnia for a few years. Most weeks I'll only sleep a few hours a few nights a week. By the end of the week I'll be so drained and sick that I have to either drink myself to sleep or hit the pharmacy up for some pills. I HATE to do that though, because it's not a cure... but after 5 nights of shitty sleep and "near sleep" (not sleeping, but lying in bed "relaxed" until you hear the alarm and have to get up for work) really fuck with your head and your body. One night of pills, to me, seems like a healthier option.
I, too, can't turn my brain off. It just turns, and turns, and turns, I don't know what I'm even thinking about, but no matter how tired I am I can't shut my head up and just fall asleep! Around, and around all fucking night... sigh.
I know what you're going through and I sincerely hope that it's temporary... insomnia can really fuck you up.... and its not a whole lot of fun either.
When I have insomnia really bad for a long time I don't really feel like me anymore... I almost don't feel alive. I feel like a reanimated corpse... days, nights and weeks become a blur of grey-eyed detached existence.
Don't let it get that far. Get help. Get sleep.