I'm new here and just feel so lonely, hate being shy!

[Jillianalexis00]

Hi I'm jillian and I'm 26 from md and I'm married. I been shy all of my life and with that comes depression. I don't understand why I am like this, I hate it. It has got me no where in life. I never finshed high school but did get my dilpoma and never went to college. I had some work experience but it was off and on. I look at everyone else and they have it all, friends, career, fun and so on. I have no one at all, I can't make friends for some reason. No one really likes me. I try but they always disappear on me. All I have is my hubby but he works and im home by myself. I just really dislike myself, I feel so alone like im the only one who goes thru this and i ask why me? If anyone cares to talk to me, please pm me, maybe I'll feel less alone. Thanks!

 

[metaphor99]

Welcome! I'm really new here, too. But I've already found that the people here are very supportive and understanding. Sometimes, when you read something someone is having trouble with, you think, "Hey, that's just like me!" And you don't feel so alone anymore =)
We have some things in common. I am married, too, and have trouble making friends. I'm very shy and have trouble making eye contact, and I just dread having conversations with people.
I'm sure it isn't that people don't like you...they just may not be able to relate to your struggles. As I said earlier, people here can identify with your troubles. And please don't hate yourself. I'm sure your husband loves you very much, and if he knows you feel that way, I'm sure it hurts him. I once told my husband how much I dislike myself, and he said, "please don't put down the person I love most."
You say you're alone all day in your house..do you like animals? I have 3 dogs and they make the best company for when my husband is at work. Maybe you could get a pet?
Don't feel alone, Jillian. There are many people here who can relate! I hope you can find happiness in knowing that =)

 

[Luke1993]

Welcome to the forums! Have you spoke to your husband about your problems?

 

[scoobycrawler]

Well I am new to this to I am like really kinda a person with really evil tendencies and really am psychotic but I am really trying to be good. I am really shy not over the internet as long as people arn't actually in the room with me then I am okay. They put me in a crazy hospital before and i wanted to kill everyone in there because i can't stand being physically close to others and they forced me in a box with them for like five months and i am still having issues... I guess I will always be screwed .

 

[Feathers]

Hey Jillian & Metaphor and Welcome!

You are both lucky to have your husbands!!

I think that sometimes even just being alone at home can cause problems, if you go out among nice and friendly people you just feel better...
Can you join a club or society, maybe something artsy/crafty/eco, or whatever your interests are, usually nice people there... Or take a course.. (maybe a language course or something you always wanted to learn?) Some things are free even!! Can you find a charity to volunteer with?
There are lots of opportunities for hanging out with lovely people and making a difference - or you can create some!

Good luck!!

 

[metaphor99]

Thanks for the welcome, Feathers! And I love your suggestions - I think taking a course to learn something new would be so much fun. ^-^

 

[Ignace]

Start by telling your husband you feel like this.

 

[DespairSoul]

Hello Jillian,

Welcome here. I know well trought what u are going. We all here do. You arent only one who feel like that. Please be strong and anytime what u need support here will be your place between us anytime. Im here too new ok 8 december will be one month but this is almost nothing=o) I meet here great people what share theirs problems and we try help each others with kind words and suggestions. W E L C O M E