i have been bullied all me life cut myself and tried to ciment suicide twice and they still continue on making fun of me. i didnt do anything wrong and i wish i knew what it was about because i am tired of bein fake happy and fake smiling and laughin
Don't kill yourself over this. You’re not the only one going through this. For the longest time I thought I was doing something wrong until I realized that I wasn't being treated the same way by everyone. It has occurred to me that there is a "community" out there (especially where I live) that thrives on the misery of others. They latch on to people who are particularly vulnerable and attack them with the viciousness of a pack of wolves. It's almost like a religion of sacrifice... They do this for ideological reasons. They feel that people they perceive as "weak" will threaten the resolve of the community.
Their paranoia of the "boogie men" has driven them to these extremes. They would rather see our society run like a concentration camp (martial law) than work toward creating balance (with slight upward progression). Dissent and weakness are immediately stamped-out. A healthy society needs niches and diversity to support an "ecosystem." Top-down authoritarianism will never work. There needs to be a partnership. When there is blatant disregard for the needs of the individual components, people, members; the system is bound to fail.
A computer would not function if it were entirely made from transistors (processors). You also need capacitors, resistors, RF chokes, etc... for the "system" to function.
Ignore those provincial types and find your niche!