I've been there too and I can honestly tell you there is light at the other side. I had nothing going for me, I thought my anxiety would never go away. I attempted suicide a few times and would not eat for weeks. Everything was just black, no hope, guilt, numbness, shame and desperation.
But I decided to go therapy when my parents kicked down my door I had barricaded and saw me in the corner of my room crying with cuts i'd made all over my body. It was a horrible moment seeing the terror and fear in my family's faces. That's when they booked me an appointment to see the doctor. I saw how much it hurt my family and I knew I had to go along with this even tho i just wanted to give up.
The doctor told me I had sever social anxiety (I did not know what this was at the time and was so happy to know it had a name) and sever depression. They gave me 200mg of sertraline and I went on a 2 year course of therapies etc and found a new love for painting which has given me a lot of confidence and given me a way to express myself when I feel there is no other way.
Now I paint for a living, I'm going to go uni next year and I go out more and see my friends now. I do get anxious still but all my friends know now that I have this disorder. I'm still trying to overcome it and it is possible! I have started using EFT recently and it's having amazing results already.
If i decided to give up then. I would not of found myself. I would not of made something with my life. My family would of been broken. I would of never known what was round that corner.
To every down there is an up, that's what my mother told me and it could not be more true.
I hope you fight through this, you have all my faith and im sure everyone who has seen your post feels the same! You can do this!
We are all here for you if you need some advice or even just someone to talk to!
