I just want to...

[saeriyas]

DillJenkins, for the last while, I've been getting increasingly scared of jobs, too.
It really freaks me out to think about how I would get a job, and knowing that I am going to need to get one eventually or suffer.

And most of the people around me, none of them seem to feel as freaked out by jobs as I do. They are "annoyed" or "angry" that I don't try to get a job, and they feel I'm being lazy and not pulling my weight.

Do you feel like not even applying to jobs?

 

[sullyS1985]

I want to have never been born in the first place.

Same here, but since i was I would like to be hit by a train.

 

[Jake123]

Same here, but since i was I would like to be hit by a train.

It does sound like the next best thing doesn't it?

 

[Justas]

jump from the airplane without a parachute, holding cup of coffee in one hand.

 

[danstelter]

Wake up dude. Such things happen just in movies...

This was in response to someone saying that sometimes things just come and jump into your life. And, this is true, but only on a very rare occasion. It seems that those who work hard on growing find better and better things in their lives. I.E. someone must identify a long-term personal goal such as becoming a successful entrepreneur and work hard at attaining that goal.

Some people can also work hard and never make any progress...for example a person who works a factory job fifty or more hours per week. That person is working hard, but does not have any goals or plan in place for getting out of the factory, and as such, they remain in it until retirement.

If you want to make progress in life, you have to take chances in order to reach your goals, and you will, but only if you try.

 

[PoopFace]

I feel that way but I have someone to live for so disappearing is not a viable option.

 

[DillJenkins]

DillJenkins, for the last while, I've been getting increasingly scared of jobs, too.
It really freaks me out to think about how I would get a job, and knowing that I am going to need to get one eventually or suffer.

And most of the people around me, none of them see to feel as freaked by jobs as I do. They are "annoyed" or "angry" that I don't try to get a job, and they feel I'm being lazy and not pulling my weight.

Do you feel like not even applying to jobs?

I am same as you. I cant even really apply for jobs. If I can apply online then I will usually send in my information if I think I can handle the job.

I never get any calls but I also dont apply to enough jobs to be expecting calls. Usually, the job seeker is the one who is supposed to call to see if anyone has looked at application.

The main reason I am afraid is I am 23 and have never had real job. I have only worked for my father and now his health is in the shitter and I have no job anymore. Its like its just too overwhelming for me..

 

[Miami]

I just want to scream

 

[Aiyieeeee]

I don't think you want to disappear. That's our problem. We feel invisible.

We want to be seen and perceived as a normal, regular human being and we want that perception to be true.

We're already invisible in our mind's eye.

 

[Mokkat]

I just want to disappear, in the sense of moving away to some city where noone knows me. Im stuck in my parents' house atm, and stuck with watchin my past friends move in with girlfriends, and generally do something with their lives :S

A fresh start, some small appartment and a random job, that would give me some peace of mind right now. Nice plans for the future, huh :S

 

[sullyS1985]

I just want to disappear, in the sense of moving away to some city where noone knows me. Im stuck in my parents' house atm, and stuck with watchin my past friends move in with girlfriends, and generally do something with their lives :S

A fresh start, some small appartment and a random job, that would give me some peace of mind right now. Nice plans for the future, huh :S

i think disappearing to a different city would just result in wanting to disappear again in the future. I want to be comfortable in my on skin so no matter where i am i would be comfy. easier said than done though.

 

[Sinopia]

I just want to... LIVE! I just want to have a life. I've been through so much shit in my life, like racism, prejudices, strict parents, humiliation. I just think we all deserve to feel more comfortable. Nowadays I don't want to dissapear or commit suicide or whatever anymore. Life can be very ****ed up sometimes, but we just need to learn how to deal with it. If we don't learn to become stronger and more assertive, we'll miss so many wonderful things in life. I hate myself and my life. Not much about myself has changed. I still cannot break out of my shell. I'm still struggling with social phobia, but things are getting a bit better than before I guess. I'm less shy now. I do talk with people when I'm outside or in a pub, but I still need to learn to talk more and to make more eye contact with them. It's hard, but I just need to force myself to do it, cuz no one else will do it for me.