I was so sick of having no one that I met this guy from Facebook turns out he was seeing a lot of girls.
He said he liked me and I am not naïve I knew it was a lie but I didn't want to end it
He doesn't want to make it official and that is a massive clue I see him all the time for over 3 months now
He says he loves me and I am perfect and he can see a future, again I am way to anxious and have zero confidence that not once did I believe this
He keeps meeting these girls way way way prettier than me and massive chances fare that they are funner than me.
when he comes over I am sooooooooo quite and boring and he says it sometimes as a joke but its true.
He has literally took any confidence I had I hate myself sooo much. I have never been this depressed. I have no one I can chill with to get my mind of him. His always on my mind.
Doesn't help I have started a higher dose of my medication so my emotions are all over the place and I feel things way more strongly at the moment :/
Its the worst feeling ever, I just feel so low and wish I had never met him.
Things where easier without people.
he is tearing me down. I cry so much.
Its not that I am in-love with him or blah its the fact that once I again I am not good enough for anyone and people always find someone better EVERYTIME
Why am I never good enough for anyone?!!?
I know I need to let him go but when he is not here I am so depressed :crying:
This sounds so whiny and pathetic lol I always get annoyed at people that feel the need to have someone to be happy but I guess never being close to anyone in my life I liked the feeling and now I cant let it go but I am left some of the time feeling lonelier than ever.
Please help me I hate this feeling. The number of panic attacks I been having lately and the verbally abusing myself and feeling the need to hurt myself is overwhelming and I am not coping.
I have never been this bad in my life and a stupid douchebag lying beep has made me feel like this annoys me even more!
A bit of a rant ha and sorry for the bad grammar and spelling. Oops
He said he liked me and I am not naïve I knew it was a lie but I didn't want to end it
He doesn't want to make it official and that is a massive clue I see him all the time for over 3 months now
He says he loves me and I am perfect and he can see a future, again I am way to anxious and have zero confidence that not once did I believe this
He keeps meeting these girls way way way prettier than me and massive chances fare that they are funner than me.
when he comes over I am sooooooooo quite and boring and he says it sometimes as a joke but its true.
He has literally took any confidence I had I hate myself sooo much. I have never been this depressed. I have no one I can chill with to get my mind of him. His always on my mind.
Doesn't help I have started a higher dose of my medication so my emotions are all over the place and I feel things way more strongly at the moment :/
Its the worst feeling ever, I just feel so low and wish I had never met him.
Things where easier without people.
he is tearing me down. I cry so much.
Its not that I am in-love with him or blah its the fact that once I again I am not good enough for anyone and people always find someone better EVERYTIME
Why am I never good enough for anyone?!!?
I know I need to let him go but when he is not here I am so depressed :crying:
This sounds so whiny and pathetic lol I always get annoyed at people that feel the need to have someone to be happy but I guess never being close to anyone in my life I liked the feeling and now I cant let it go but I am left some of the time feeling lonelier than ever.
Please help me I hate this feeling. The number of panic attacks I been having lately and the verbally abusing myself and feeling the need to hurt myself is overwhelming and I am not coping.
I have never been this bad in my life and a stupid douchebag lying beep has made me feel like this annoys me even more!
A bit of a rant ha and sorry for the bad grammar and spelling. Oops