We, as a HH sufferes all understand what you are going through, it is tough and Im sure we all being there. But, this is life and we have to go forward no matter what, if you are an non believer like me you will realize that this is your only life and YOU are the determining factor of how you want to live it. Life is such a precious little thing, from the creation of the universe billions years ago, till now, from the plants that gives us oxygen so we can breath, to all of the microscopic cells that make our body. It goes forward and so must you. be positive, yes, having HH sucks so badly, theres not a single day I dont think about it, but hey at least its not life threatening right? look at the various treatment options that are available today, ionto, glyco, beta blockers, aluminum based antiperspirant, botox. You have to be active in your own treatment, no one is going to offer you help if you dont ask for it, and asking for help is not a bad thing, its a good thing.
Most importantly, accept the fact that you have HH and dont be ashamed of that, personally, this has being the most problematic thing for me, but for you to get to that ZEN state you have to be in balance with yourself. I believe some people in this forum have achieved that already and im sure they can tell you their experiences and how life is not always bad and hey, they are actually happier now.