simpsons2007
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I've been telling myself everyday for quite a few years (most of my life) that things will get better. But I know deep down that I'm just lying to myself and I don't believe it anymore. I don't think I will ever get better from SA.
Each year that goes past it keeps getting worse and worse. I have become almost completely withdrawn from the outside world and everyone around me. These days I struggle to get out two words when talking to someone. There hasn't been one single day that I feel this getting any better. For me SA is one battle that I can not defeat not matter how hard I try I just can't win.
Nothing I have tried has ever helped me one bit. Going to see my doctor every month or two doesn't help. I just can't talk about how I am doing/feeling so my doctor doesn't know whats really going on in my head. Medication has never worked (and I've tried quite a few) for me so the doctor stopped it.
Seeing a therapist/CPN has never worked as I couldn't talk about whats really going on in my head or how I'm feeling. I would sit in silence not knowing how to communicate properly. So my doctor decided to stop that. CBT never worked as I couldn't get my head around the way you have to change your thought process.
My doctor suggested maybe joining a group but at the moment thats a big NO. I can't cope being in a room with one person and having to talk them so being in a room with a group will be impossible to cope with. It just feels like there is nothing left that will help!
I know that I will never be able to do it by myself but I also know that I can't do it with the help from the professionals that I was getting or from anyone else.
I know I probably shouldn't say this but "I give up". What's the point in trying anymore to get better from SA? When I know I can't overcome it or find a way to control my SA. Everything I've tried to help me hasn't worked and I just fail at it. I'm at the point where I've given up on what else to try.
Each year that goes past it keeps getting worse and worse. I have become almost completely withdrawn from the outside world and everyone around me. These days I struggle to get out two words when talking to someone. There hasn't been one single day that I feel this getting any better. For me SA is one battle that I can not defeat not matter how hard I try I just can't win.
Nothing I have tried has ever helped me one bit. Going to see my doctor every month or two doesn't help. I just can't talk about how I am doing/feeling so my doctor doesn't know whats really going on in my head. Medication has never worked (and I've tried quite a few) for me so the doctor stopped it.
Seeing a therapist/CPN has never worked as I couldn't talk about whats really going on in my head or how I'm feeling. I would sit in silence not knowing how to communicate properly. So my doctor decided to stop that. CBT never worked as I couldn't get my head around the way you have to change your thought process.
My doctor suggested maybe joining a group but at the moment thats a big NO. I can't cope being in a room with one person and having to talk them so being in a room with a group will be impossible to cope with. It just feels like there is nothing left that will help!
I know that I will never be able to do it by myself but I also know that I can't do it with the help from the professionals that I was getting or from anyone else.
I know I probably shouldn't say this but "I give up". What's the point in trying anymore to get better from SA? When I know I can't overcome it or find a way to control my SA. Everything I've tried to help me hasn't worked and I just fail at it. I'm at the point where I've given up on what else to try.