I was ignorant as a laddy, had my heart stomped on by 2 gals. One of them, my friend and I both liked, he had cousins to help him get the girl, i had nothing.... in the end, i got dragged by the shirt crying in the hallway watching the two hug. Embarrassing, yet heartbreaking...
Yes everyone, I just have to say something and some of you know but let's keep names confidential for everyone's happiness but I have to express this...I'm dying inside
So, I've been talking to a certain somebody for about 2 months and it turned my world around, everyday me and this person talked for hours upon hours and had lots of personal conversations, staying up all night. She gave me a certain happiness I haven't felt in a long time. We really connected and I didn't want a Long Distance Relationship but we talked like it and we had hopes that one day this would work.....well it fell apart and it was bad but not the end of the world, she wanted me back a couple days later and I wanted her back so we worked it out but the very next day(today) it fell apart again becuase somebody close to her that she didn't know liked her, expressed his feelings towards her, and well since I'm not physically there, I was going to lose this battle. I know she feels terrible about this and I don't hate her for it, it's just the fact that LDR are way too hard when your not actually there. So now she's gone and I'm left with a broken heart. Can somebody kill me now?
You know I have a lot of emotions, everyone in the book ,anger is definitly one of those. I won't get into all of it though, there is a reason for it but it was a complicated thing of ours we had, but there was some hope there. My feelings just got wrapped up instead of accepting that it was a fantasy that would break. I should have stayed away. When you put your heart into it, theres a million ways it can end bad and only 1 good, I guess you don't know til you try but......f*** my life.