well i will tell my saga
about 3 years ago i joined spw, after that i was more encouraged to seek help, and one day i started going out with friends into partyes... it was about a year of parting, not a lot but once or twice a month, in this parties generally i would drink...
mostly to stop being so awkward arond girls, at the time my only objective in life was to kiss a girl... but generally the courage potiom became the embarassment potiom amd 2 out of 3 parties i would blow every chance i had with any girl and do something stupid because i was so drunk....
i realized that i have such a personality that to stop being shy , i had to be beyond drunk
well for me it was not until much latter when i went out with a girl in a date that i was able to hook up with someone, that day i drunk much less , but i didnt had to chase girls,,,
now i dont do that anymore, i realized im not the party type, that girl is still the only girl i kissed but i'm not that crazy about it anymore...
it was a lot to learn, and i'm still finding my place, i still trying to find someone that likes me and that i like back, i learned that the only way to make that happen - or anythig in life - is to try and serch for it , but forcing things and being exagerated is no good.