SkepticMind
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While I have a few ambitious pursuits that I hold with a great degree of importance, I always feel obstructed and frustrated when I think about my age. And I'm stuck with the notion that "I'm too old for that". As I try to make every day count and pave my way closer to achieving my goals, it's always these intrusive thoughts that's holding me back.
I don't want to mention my age here because I want to stay away from the idea that age is a big deal and that I have limitations or deadlines. Unfortunately, the media likes to imbue certain ages with their standard of youth and vitality. I always try to convince myself that age is just a number, which in reality, is true. I mean if you look around, you see 40 year olds who look and act young, and you see 20 year olds you look and act old. Age is not a measure of youth, it's your personality and character that determines that.
My personal trainer is 40 years old and she does running marathons and she runs up to 10k. One of my favourite singers hit 32 recently and she maintains her fitness and goes clubbing every weekend. One of my favourite acrobatic athletes hit 33 and still does performances. My favourite role model is 55 years old and he goes around debating people, he's trenchant and intellectual. Nobody asks these people how old they are and that they shouldn't be doing what they're doing at that age...
I know I'm being irrational about this whole age thing. I have goals that are not too demanding, and I'm so close to achieving them, if I could only put in a little effort in focusing on them rather than wallowing over my age.
Sadly, I go through this on a daily basis, and I have a tough time finding any sort of inspiration. and I was wondering, may be it isn't my irrational thoughts over my age, may be I'm going through clinical depression? I realised that throughout the day I get episodes of depression and perhaps anti-depressants just might be the solution to this problem? Or perhaps all I need is a push from some encouraging words...
I don't want to mention my age here because I want to stay away from the idea that age is a big deal and that I have limitations or deadlines. Unfortunately, the media likes to imbue certain ages with their standard of youth and vitality. I always try to convince myself that age is just a number, which in reality, is true. I mean if you look around, you see 40 year olds who look and act young, and you see 20 year olds you look and act old. Age is not a measure of youth, it's your personality and character that determines that.
My personal trainer is 40 years old and she does running marathons and she runs up to 10k. One of my favourite singers hit 32 recently and she maintains her fitness and goes clubbing every weekend. One of my favourite acrobatic athletes hit 33 and still does performances. My favourite role model is 55 years old and he goes around debating people, he's trenchant and intellectual. Nobody asks these people how old they are and that they shouldn't be doing what they're doing at that age...
I know I'm being irrational about this whole age thing. I have goals that are not too demanding, and I'm so close to achieving them, if I could only put in a little effort in focusing on them rather than wallowing over my age.
Sadly, I go through this on a daily basis, and I have a tough time finding any sort of inspiration. and I was wondering, may be it isn't my irrational thoughts over my age, may be I'm going through clinical depression? I realised that throughout the day I get episodes of depression and perhaps anti-depressants just might be the solution to this problem? Or perhaps all I need is a push from some encouraging words...