i am feeling rubbish. i just wish i was dead, but with death u have to feel pain before u die, n il have to remember i have lived not a normal life, an unfulfilling one where i spent so much time alone and hardly got to know anyone. i want to die but i dont want to go through death. i am fed up of this world, i am sick of people, people who are having a laugh at others, people who are enjoying there lifes, hav so much more money and so they think they can laugh and take the mick out of others who have less then them. i wish people would suffer whatr i am going through, i know it is wrong to think that but i want people to stop being so pathetic. i just hate everything and just cant take this loneliness any more, but people are so hard to trust. i dont know why i exist in this horrible world. sorry guys, just had to say it