Cleaning for a hotel that offers cheap rooms for people with mental troubles. It's all non-profit, so they have to rely on volunteers to do most of the labour.
It used to, but I've lost the satisfaction of that notion a while ago. Now it's a choice between two evils. Either I go, and suffer the embarrassment and stares thereof, or I don't go and spend the rest of the week knowing that my sense of self preservation got the upper-hand over my integrity again.
Both of them are gut wrenching.
Is there anyway you can quit, if its making you feel bad?
Is there anyway you can quit, if its making you feel bad?
It would be strategically very unwise to do so.
I'm currently very reliant on government controlled programs/initiatives to help me, and by quitting I risk cutting myself off from that help. In order to show to all concerned that I'm at least willing to try, I need to keep going there whenever I can.
I am unbelievably tired. My brain is fried from information overload and I am getting a head cold.:sad:
Hey blue:-)
I have to teach a class tommorrow , for my practical exam. A bit nervous, as to how to approach the class.
I feel that way..like my brain is fried when i read too much info on net or spend a lot of time on net .
Take a break..relax closing your eyes and put on a soothing music.
Hey blue:-)
I have to teach a class tommorrow , for my practical exam. A bit nervous, as to how to approach the class.
I feel that way..like my brain is fried when i read too much info on net or spend a lot of time on net .
Take a break..relax closing your eyes and put on a soothing music.
good luck with that. are you becoming a teacher? that's a job i don't think i could cope with. :shyness:
good luck with that. are you becoming a teacher? that's a job i don't think i could cope with. :shyness:
Yeah , not my type of job but that is what is before me for now.
I don't really have SA, I have OCD so may be it is easier for me. I hate to shout in class trying /asking the students to be quiet and listen to me. I wish I can have an interesting desk job.
I feel great this morning. If the sun was shining and it was at least 70 degrees it would be perfect. I got to sleep in, and I have no where to be today. Feels good.
I feel proud of myself today and yesterday, for opening the door and greeting the delivery guy. In the past, I would go hide and just let my mom do it. This in itself is real progress.
I feel proud of myself today and yesterday, for opening the door and greeting the delivery guy. In the past, I would go hide and just let my mom do it. This in itself is real progress.
I feel good about myself too, when I manage to do something like that.
I have to teach a class tommorrow , for my practical exam. A bit nervous, as to how to approach the class.
^ Whoa, that would be nerve-racking! I think too much power has been taken away from teachers now.
It must be such a hard job to do successfully now that you are very limited in the methods you are allowed to use to control the behaviour of students.
I hope the your practical exam went well?
I am looking forward to tomorrow. It's a public holiday here so I can hide in my cosy little cave all day. :thumbup::applause:
Last Friday the intensity of my worrying thoughts really scared me. I was scared I was going to lose everything, I thought they were going to take Lenny my cockatiel away. I didn't sleep at all. The morning sun when it arrived was such a relief, I went for a walk along Creek trail. I thought of all I have that I don't want to lose, and there is so much to live for, so much to be taken for granted. This is a time of something to lose, a new time for me. I have lived through times when I had nothing.
I never want to feel that way again, that intense fear and emotion. The fears were irrational, they bordered on paranoia. I felt sick all through Saturday, and only imporved during Monday. A long scary weekend.
I haven't touched another drop of caffeine, I am too scared to, in case the thoughts return.
I think too much power has been taken away from teachers now.
It must be such a hard job to do successfully now that you are very limited in the methods you are allowed to use to control the behaviour of students
There a some very effective methods teachers can use to control classroom behaviour; they can seem counter-intuitive, such as quietly saying something like "Ok, we're waiting for the talking to stop before we begin today", then stand calmly looking at the talkers until they stop (important to look calm and patient, as if you can wait all day if you need to). What usually happens is that the other students turn around tell them to stop talking so that the class can begin
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