How are you feeling?

dottie said: ↑

YES emoting babies are back!!! Keep them coming

Or not...

Baby ducks are better..

Every emotion they show is stoic. They understand me. :I

uhhhh

All these baby pictures kind of creep me out a little 🤨 ...

I feel like I have things to lose, I fear my anxiety will jeopardize all that. It is diminishing what should be a great time in my life.

I feel good.

I just scarfed down some Bojangles and there's nothing on my agenda until I go to my mother's for lunch today at 1:30.

Happy Easter

Hahaha, those baby pics are back. So creepy!

FountainandFairfax said: ↑

I feel good.

I just scarfed down some Bojangles and there's nothing on my agenda until I go to my mother's for lunch today at 1:30.

Happy Easter

^ Happy Easter, Fairfax. Sounds like you're going to have a pretty good day. 🙂


I'm feeling tired, but good. It's been a beautiful weekend. Lots of sun, but cool and a little breezy, my favorite kind of weather. 🙂 I hope everyone has a great holiday!

I'm feeling quite depressed today: I'm starting to feel I'm no longer Wanted in the World.

I really really don't like my extend family. I've to tolerate them because my cousin's getting married. Ugh I swear they're the most judgemental people on Earth.

Srijita52 said: ↑

I really really don't like my extend family. I've to tolerate them because my cousin's getting married. Ugh I swear they're the most judgemental people on Earth.

That can't be true since my extended family are the most judgmental people on the Earth. :bigsmile:

Phoenixx said: ↑

I'm feeling tired, but good. It's been a beautiful weekend. Lots of sun, but cool and a little breezy, my favorite kind of weather. 🙂 I hope everyone has a great holiday!

^ So much for that good feeling. I should really start taking these days where I wake up feeling good as a sign that my day will be absolute shit because I feel like that's what happens anymore. :sad: I know I complain too much about my parents on here, especially my mother, I don't mean to add even more negativity to the thread/forum. I just don't know what to do anymore. Once again, all morning my mother proceeded to slam things and yell. My dad finally woke up (I was in the bathroom, just finished my shower), to see what her problem was. What does she do? She yells at him about how lazy I am and how I didn't do a single thing for her all week while she was sick so she feels the way she does all because of me. I did dishes all week, I took down her laundry, folded it, and put it in her room, and I offered to make her tea and meals all week only for her to refuse and say she didn't want it. I was preoccupied with hours of college preparations the first couple days of the week just so I could get everything taken care before the end of the month, so I didn't do much on those days. (it was all due May 1st) All week while my dad was working, it was all about him, how lazy he was, how much of an "*******" she thinks he is. Yet, when he finally confronts her and wants to really know what's wrong, I'm the one to blame for everything. I basically just sat in the bathroom crying after my shower until I heard my mother leave. I'm still really upset. I'm just so sick of being treated so disrespectfully by my own parent. I'm so sick of listening to the arguing and the yelling. I want out so bad, but I have no where to go. I hate telling my boyfriend all of this because it's so depressing. He even offered to get a place for the both of us, until I left for college, just so I had somewhere to go to avoid my parents. I declined. I feel guilty when people spend money on me. Not only that, but I don't want to feel like I absolutely need my boyfriend in order to be happy, you know? He does make me happy, but I don't want him to be the only source of my happiness.... I just don't know what to do anymore. I need out so bad. :omg::sad:

Sorry for the wall of text. I just really had to get it off my chest.

planemo said: ↑

That can't be true since my extended family are the most judgmental people on the Earth. :bigsmile:

Haha extended families are evil. I did end up having a good time though, guess my brother somehow understood my situation and took me to meet his other cousins, they're all very social but nice people. Ahh Indian weddings are awful for someone as socially awkward as me. Another day..

Phoenixx said: ↑

^ So much for that good feeling. I should really start taking these days where I wake up feeling good as a sign that my day will be absolute shit because I feel like that's what happens anymore. :sad: I know I complain too much about my parents on here, especially my mother, I don't mean to add even more negativity to the thread/forum. I just don't know what to do anymore. Once again, all morning my mother proceeded to slam things and yell. My dad finally woke up (I was in the bathroom, just finished my shower), to see what her problem was. What does she do? She yells at him about how lazy I am and how I didn't do a single thing for her all week while she was sick so she feels the way she does all because of me. I did dishes all week, I took down her laundry, folded it, and put it in her room, and I offered to make her tea and meals all week only for her to refuse and say she didn't want it. I was preoccupied with hours of college preparations the first couple days of the week just so I could get everything taken care before the end of the month, so I didn't do much on those days. (it was all due May 1st) All week while my dad was working, it was all about him, how lazy he was, how much of an "*******" she thinks he is. Yet, when he finally confronts her and wants to really know what's wrong, I'm the one to blame for everything. I basically just sat in the bathroom crying after my shower until I heard my mother leave. I'm still really upset. I'm just so sick of being treated so disrespectfully by my own parent. I'm so sick of listening to the arguing and the yelling. I want out so bad, but I have no where to go. I hate telling my boyfriend all of this because it's so depressing. He even offered to get a place for the both of us, until I left for college, just so I had somewhere to go to avoid my parents. I declined. I feel guilty when people spend money on me. Not only that, but I don't want to feel like I absolutely need my boyfriend in order to be happy, you know? He does make me happy, but I don't want him to be the only source of my happiness.... I just don't know what to do anymore. I need out so bad. :omg::sad:

Sorry for the wall of text. I just really had to get it off my chest.

*Hugs* how long till you move out?

Srijita52 said: ↑

*Hugs* how long till you move out?

^ A little over 4 months from now, at the end of August.

Phoenixx said: ↑

^ A little over 4 months from now, at the end of August.

That's not a long time at all, hang in there.

Srijita52 said: ↑

That's not a long time at all, hang in there.

^ Yeah I do realize this, but it really does feel like a drag. It's just that I've put up with this crap for so long, I'm beyond impatient to get out.

Exhausted. I don't know how people do this voluntarily and without complaint.

I'm tired today. The four days of going to the gym this week finally hit me today.

Phoenixx said: ↑

^ Yeah I do realize this, but it really does feel like a drag. It's just that I've put up with this crap for so long, I'm beyond impatient to get out.

When you're waiting, especially under a toxic influence, even a week can seem like an eternity. But keep your eyes on the prize of freedom- or at the very least relief.

Also don't worry about shouting on the forum. The only thing worse than a emotionally harmful situation is being in one and feeling like your feelings/venting isn't justified and/or annoying to others.

I think I can speak for many of us here that we'd rather have you dropping frequent four letter words than having you silently suffering in a most unfair situation. Toxic feelings are like toxic lunches - better out than in.

Sick and tired of spending the night trying to sleep when all I can do is lie there dreading the morning.:kickingmyself: