How are you feeling?

Was nauseous most of the night, but it went away and something nice happened, so I'm happy~

A bit sad, when I look on Facebook everybody has so much to do, they are all so social, while I'm a hermit in the house, I don't have many people to hang out, I feel terrible.... Why don't i have many ppl to hang out with ? I want to be more social... but how ?

Falkor said: ↑

A bit sad, when I look on Facebook everybody has so much to do, they are all so social, while I'm a hermit in the house, I don't have many people to hang out, I feel terrible.... Why don't i have many ppl to hang out with ? I want to be more social... but how ?

Aye, ah feel the way whenever ah look on Facebook - probably the main reason ah don't visit that site very often. Doesnae really help ma self-esteem any, if anythin' ah jist feel envious. :sad:

Been feelin' rather depressed, lately, anaw.

I'm stressing. But I'm trying to zoom-out and realize that a month from now, this will all just be an unfocused, fading memory.

"Life is just one damn thing after another." - Ernest Hemingway's suicide note 😀

Just had a lovely talk with my mom on the couch, we hugged, she's the sweetest. I love her

Feeling Good. I started making soy candles and I am so happy with the result. I have always wanted to make candles but never did. They smell amazing and there is something so peaceful and calming about candles.. I will burn them all the time now since I don't have to be so concerned with not having more of them. I also believe there is something to be said for good smelling things improving ones mood.

Depressed

I went to Target (I don't go there enough for it to feel safe) and I was as anxious as I could be without hiding in the restroom or running out.

Then I came home and ate ice cream.

^something about all those bright red bull-eye colors everywhere that place creeps me out too. I cannot imagine working somewhere like that.

I don't know how I feel. I'm quitting my job tomorrow for a new one. I thought I'd be really happy when it happened. But even though this will be better for me, I just never liked change.

MollyBeGood said: ↑

^something about all those bright red bull-eye colors everywhere that place creeps me out too. I cannot imagine working somewhere like that.

I agree, it definitely adds to the feeling of alarm, you're always in the cross hairs. And all the employees wear the red too, so you can't help but notice them, either. I guess it helps customers to easily locate an associate, but to a social-phobe, it just feels like they're coming at you from everywhere. :omg:

At least Walmart has the decency to have their workers wear non-threatening colors. 😀

I am feeling really REALLY BAD! Depression, sadness, a feeling of darkness, hopelessness.

I felt doomed, then took Tyrosine on an empty stomach as per the instructions, got to work on a task and now feel relatively positive.

Struggling with depression. Feeling like I don't have anything to offer. I really need to get out and change my perspective... I want to reach out to friends but I am so depressed that I will be a vampire rather than provide them with anything fun/worthwhile to hang out with. I need professional help.

I'm feeling guilty because I'm procrastinating. I'm supposed to be doing an assignment for one of my online classes, but I'm watching one of my favorite movies, Remember Me, on t.v. instead. I'll get to the assignment soon.

I can’t connect with people. I can’t bridge the gap. I know the person I’d like to become. He’s friendly and caring and always has time for people. But whenever I get close to people they begin to ask things of me. Things that I’m usually unwilling to do. I’m unwilling because I love my art more than social events. I’m unwilling because the event is meant to be fun, but I rarely find it so. Why should I have to wrestle with my fears at an event where everybody else is having a great time. If fun is the purpose, I will have more fun if I’m left alone.

I’m recoiling further back into myself. Other people are like a distant muffle.

@worrywort I feel you.

I'm feeling self conscious at the moment. I'm wearing lounging clothes at home, but I feel embarassed because I look bad in them. Some of my clothes have patched up holes. I only wear them at home to lounge around, never outside of course, but the critical side of me is saying I'm stupid, I look ugly, etc. I don't want to change into my nicer clothes because they're for public occasions - I don't want to ruin them while exercising, cooking, doing house cleaning, etc.

I hope to develop the confidence of the woman in this story:
Looks Get in the Way by D. M. Larson a free romantic comedy script from freedrama.net

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worrywort said: ↑

I can’t connect with people. I can’t bridge the gap. I know the person I’d like to become. He’s friendly and caring and always has time for people. But whenever I get close to people they begin to ask things of me. Things that I’m usually unwilling to do. I’m unwilling because I love my art more than social events. I’m unwilling because the event is meant to be fun, but I rarely find it so. Why should I have to wrestle with my fears at an event where everybody else is having a great time. If fun is the purpose, I will have more fun if I’m left alone.

I’m recoiling further back into myself. Other people are like a distant muffle.

Worrywort, I haven't seen you on in awhile! I'm sorry you're feeling this way, I think lots of people on here can totally relate. I known I can, I don't know how to connect with anyone or bridge that gap either 🙁. Maybe it takes a special kind of person or maybe we need to find comfort in ourselves somehow first before we can enjoy life the way it's meant to be enjoyed. I hope you feel better soon.

jaim38 said: ↑

I'm feeling self conscious at the moment. I'm wearing lounging clothes at home, but I feel embarassed because I look bad in them. Some of my clothes have patched up holes. I only wear them at home to lounge around, never outside of course, but the critical side of me is saying I'm stupid, I look ugly, etc. I don't want to change into my nicer clothes because they're for public occasions - I don't want to ruin them while exercising, cooking, doing house cleaning, etc.

I hope to develop the confidence of the woman in this story:
Looks Get in the Way by D. M. Larson a free romantic comedy script from freedrama.net

I feel so similarly to this too. I always change into my 'comfortable' ugly ripped clothes at home and wear different ones if I ever happen to go outside. I really need new clothes that aren't so full or holes or beat up way beyond their lifespan. I almost feel like I don't deserve to wear nicer clothes because I AM ugly and feel like dressing nicely makes me come off as desperate or weird, when it's perfectly acceptable for others. That logic doesn't really make sense, but I feel uncomfortable no matter what.

^I wear the same clothes over again because I'm frugal. I try to save money whenever I can. If I get a job, I'll definitely buy myself new and better clothes.

I feel a bit down today, the reason being I'm pessimistic about the future.

On a second thought, I realize I'm having negative thoughts. I don't know what the future holds - I'm not a fortune teller! Yet, I keep imagining negative scenarios and being so pessimistic in general. I just remembered there was this woman at Toastmasters who gave a speech about her illness. Her illness is pretty serious, yet she was able to maintain a calm, even positive demeanor. Her evaluator praised her for her positive attitude. I definitely need this type of attitude! Learn how to be courageous and positive when facing the unknown.