How are you feeling?

Like I wish I had some Nembutal.

anomicdeer said: ↑

I don't know. I just don't feel right. I wish I could find a way to feel better...

When you find it, do you think you could give me directions? I am very, very lost.

Feel like taking a long nap.. but my to do list is glaring at me

this_portrait said: ↑

I'm tired. I need to start cracking down on this article for class (seeing as it's due this Thursday), but mehhh, I'm just so lazy.

I hear you, i have two assignments and an exam this week and havent started any of the assignments or done the classes (12 or 15 hours worth of online lectures) for the exam yet..

Hellhound said: ↑

Awful again.

I want this to stop.

PM's are open if you need them (although I will be in bed very shortly).

LoyalXenite said: ↑

Feel like taking a long nap.. but my to do list is glaring at me

Heh, that can be frustrating!

I'm feeling okay. Tiredness is making me a bit sentimental, but a nice sleep will do me wonders. I miss Fiona really bad. :sad:

Like crap.

MikeyC said: ↑

I miss Fiona really bad. :sad:

I hear you on that one :alone:

Super tired. I have been walking the whole afternoon and gone to zumba and aerobics exercise..

Like ending it all would be the ideal solution! If am honest... :sad:

Sorry, am just huvin' a really sh*te day! Everything's gettin' me doon! It's hard pretendin' yer happy when yer not, really. Ah get that from ma mum, recently she told me that she also covers up her struggle with depression usin' humour. Hers being surreal, whereas ah go for the more cynical, twisted, deadpan, sarcastic humour. Ah dread tae think how she really feels if she prefer tae not take her depression too seriously? Better to laugh than cry, she told me, apparently. Is it really, though? Is it better to pretend a problem isn't that bad or doesnae exactly, at the expense of actually talkin' about it? Because yer gonnae hear somethin' ye didnae want tae hear. But that's dysfunctional families for ya! Innit? Support, understanding and empathy not included! :crying: :kickingmyself:

Sorry, am just ramblin' on... ah'll stop now.

I wrote letters to the two people not respecting my boundaries (no wonder we have SA?) and I am diggin' my new surroundings. So many possibilities living here, but doing anything "fun" is challenging when you have SA and no money. My son and his wife brought me my kayak (out of winter storage) so I hope to get some peace with that activity. Peace of mind comes in tiny bits these days, if at all.

neardeath said: ↑

I wrote letters to the two people not respecting my boundaries (no wonder we have SA?) and I am diggin' my new surroundings. So many possibilities living here, but doing anything "fun" is challenging when you have SA and no money. My son and his wife brought me my kayak (out of winter storage) so I hope to get some peace with that activity. Peace of mind comes in tiny bits these days, if at all.

Aye, ah can relate there.

Honestly... shattered and scattered all over the floor.
Just when I start feeling kind of emotionally balanced, a rush of sadness invades every fiber of my being, without a reason. I am sure many people feel the same way. Just want to say that I am new here so if any of you needs to talk feel free to message.

Is it just me or does it seem like everyone on this site is happy at once and everyone is sad at once? On average, I mean. Today seems like a gloomy day for most, whereas I think it was yesterday, many of the posts were positive. Hrm :thinking: Maybe it's just a Monday thing.

I do hope everyone who's feeling down finds something to feel good about.

Opaline said: ↑

Is it just me or does it seem like everyone on this site is happy at once and everyone is sad at once? On average, I mean. Today seems like a gloomy day for most, whereas I think it was yesterday, many of the posts were positive. Hrm :thinking: Maybe it's just a Monday thing.

Who likes Mondays, anyway? :bigsmile:

Opaline said: ↑

I do hope everyone who's feeling down finds something to feel good about.

Believe me, darlin', am tryin'. But there's no much for me tae feel good about, at the moment.

F**k! Sorry, ah sound like a dour, pessimistic prick, there. :sad:

An injury 10km free run, that's positive.

Welcome to the forum Pulmonar

It bugs me a lot when it hits me hard sometimes what a big bunch of b.s our whole existence is.

and that is required that we do everything with such enthusiasm, knowing full well what's in store for us when we got old looks like total crap to me....

Bah sorry. Just had to get out this negativity. I hear 85% of us will be senile when we are old, dementia etc. I guess I really detest the idea of old age and never really felt like I lived fully while I was able scares me and makes me depressed.

pulmonar said: ↑

Honestly... shattered and scattered all over the floor.
Just when I start feeling kind of emotionally balanced, a rush of sadness invades every fiber of my being, without a reason. I am sure many people feel the same way. Just want to say that I am new here so if any of you needs to talk feel free to message.

Kiwong said: ↑

Welcome to the forum Pulmonar

Aye, weclome, Pulmonar. Yes, I just misspelled "welcome", but I'm aware of that, just a wee joke, really. 🤭

April Snow said: ↑

It bugs me a lot when it hits me hard sometimes what a big bunch of b.s our whole existence is.

Aye, but that's life, innit? Wait, whatthef**k am I on aboot?! 😕 :idontknow:

Saw people with boats going fishing on the river today. Got depressed thinking I never do anything fun like that anymore. Pretty much everything struck a nerve with me when I went out shopping, though I tried to be/feel positive..people with babies, a semi flipped over on the hwy, my tires and brakes on their last leg..the wind, old people driving r.v's, the bag boy who wouldn't shut up about his Great Dane dogs, the man parked next to me who wanted to be chatty.

April Snow said: ↑

It bugs me a lot when it hits me hard sometimes what a big bunch of b.s our whole existence is.

and that is required that we do everything with such enthusiasm, knowing full well what's in store for us when we got old looks like total crap to me....

Bah sorry. Just had to get out this negativity. I hear 85% of us will be senile when we are old, dementia etc. I guess I really detest the idea of old age and never really felt like I lived fully while I was able scares me and makes me depressed.

I suppose the phrase "life is what we make it" applies here. There is no point to life, but we're in it, so might as well enjoy it while we can.

Regarding senility, I hope to be long gone before that happens. 🤭