Okay, so just let me clue you in on how I'm starting out. I'm 19, gonna be 20 this year. I'm overweight by 50 lbs. Don't eat healthy & exercise. I also have social anxiety my whole life that makes everyday living a challenge. I'm a shy, awkward, quiet person, mainly due to my social anxiety. I'm actually really funny & outspoken when I'm comfortable with someone, which happens to be only my sister & a few best friends. But these past years it has been getting worse. I get tightness in my chest from the anxiety now, which became new to me last year around this time. My social anxiety is so bad that I stay home ALL the time & avoid most social situations. The only time I'm eager to go out is when alcohol is involved so I won't have to deal with my social anxiety. & Yes this means I don't have very much friends & I'm lonely most of the time, usually "eat the loneliness away". It's also very hard for me to keep a job because of my social anxiety, so I live with my mom for obvious reasons. Also I'm too anxious to even attempt to drive, so yeah my social anxiety is pretty bad.
But now I'm getting so sick of this, struggling day by day & being lonely. The most thing I want to work on is my social anxiety. It has too much control over me, which is really overwhelming. I'm going to start, tomorrow morning when I wake up, by counting calories, eat healthier & getting exercise into my life. Since I heard that can help it. I just want to be a better, new me. I don't want to hide anymore. I want to go out in the world & not have social anxiety hold me back. I also have dreams of going back to school (only made it to grade 11 because of family issues, a personal trauma & my social anxiety played a factor too), keeping a job & moving out of my mom's place, preferably a new town too. And eventually becoming a Biologist. I also just want to be fit & healthy, weight wise especially. I want to be that outspoken, random person that I know I am deep down inside. I'm also considering taking medication for my social anxiety, but I'm just curious if it's worth it or not. I've also made a deadline to straighten my life out before I turn 20 (which is in 5 months).
I'd just like to know & see stories about people who have recovered or maintained there social anxiety, if there is actually hope to recovering or maintaining a balance with it. I accepted that I'll always have this, but what I seek is control & a balance. I'd also like to see feedback on what you guys think of my plan & if I should use medication or not & which kind of medication too. It would be very appreciated!
But now I'm getting so sick of this, struggling day by day & being lonely. The most thing I want to work on is my social anxiety. It has too much control over me, which is really overwhelming. I'm going to start, tomorrow morning when I wake up, by counting calories, eat healthier & getting exercise into my life. Since I heard that can help it. I just want to be a better, new me. I don't want to hide anymore. I want to go out in the world & not have social anxiety hold me back. I also have dreams of going back to school (only made it to grade 11 because of family issues, a personal trauma & my social anxiety played a factor too), keeping a job & moving out of my mom's place, preferably a new town too. And eventually becoming a Biologist. I also just want to be fit & healthy, weight wise especially. I want to be that outspoken, random person that I know I am deep down inside. I'm also considering taking medication for my social anxiety, but I'm just curious if it's worth it or not. I've also made a deadline to straighten my life out before I turn 20 (which is in 5 months).
I'd just like to know & see stories about people who have recovered or maintained there social anxiety, if there is actually hope to recovering or maintaining a balance with it. I accepted that I'll always have this, but what I seek is control & a balance. I'd also like to see feedback on what you guys think of my plan & if I should use medication or not & which kind of medication too. It would be very appreciated!