6string
Member
Well obviously I'm new posting here but I'm not new to reading your forum and gathering support from it. As far back as I can remember I have had general anxiety, a pretty nasty helping of OCD mixed with a generous amount of depression. I never really delt with sa though, social interaction was actually a release for me, a stimulant to forget about what was in my mind. However a year or so ago I started getting extremely uncomfortable to the point of being physically sick when I would be in class. (I'm a 24 year old college student.) I soon recognized these to be panic attacks and they grew in intensity to the point that going to the gas station, store etc. became something so difficult that I made it through it with pure will power. I now am suffering from a fear of leaving the house so strong that here I am on the largest downhill slide possible with school, right as I'm so close to the end. It's so hard to have the social phobias/ agoraphobia/ panic attacks as is. On top of this my family and professors now consider me lazy, pathetic..a failure. I know more about the material that I am studying than most in my classes, but even if I brave my way to class there is no way to overcome my symptoms. I therefore can't really accomplish anything. I'm quite familiar with all techniques and medications to help me but none have worked in any way. I'm stuck in an endless circle now of being a total failure, a recluse, a nervous wreck. It took everything in me to even post this for fear of...well I don't even know but everything to me is scary but playing my guitar, its all I have. I feel like if we all had broken legs or things like that everyone would understand the struggle, but nobody sees your brain. There is no cast there, and it's a rather hopeless feeling right now. Thanks for reading if you still are, and good luck to all of you in your journey through life.
Mike
Mike
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