This is my SP Blog, which will contain journal-type posts and other things that I have in my head and want to share. I encourage comments, criticisms, critiques, etc. Let me know what you think.
This is kind of a trial run, for when I have a blog/website of my own. I thought about using my DeviantArt page, but I don't receive comments on journal entries there.
So, for my first entry:
Honestly it's not that I don't have enough time, it's that my brain doesn't function good enough to accomplish things as quickly as other people. But this won't stop me, and one day I hope to be able to accomplish more, in the same amount of time.
As the the tittle says, there are many, many things that I have to learn. Many things related to my art and hobbies, and many things not related to my hobbies. I'm just going to stick with my art and hobbies during this journal entry.
Back when I was a kid (ages 12-18), I used to create poor quality 3D models for a computer game called Midtown Madness 2. I stopped around the age of 18 or so and started spending my time doing other things, but I always thought about returning to 3D modeling and create higher quality things than I did for MM2 (MM2 is very limited due to when it was made and how it was programmed). Recently, out of nowhere, I decided to check and see if the main MM2 sites were still online. I was surprised to see that they were.
After browsing them for awhile, I decided, spurt of the moment, to start modeling another track for MM2. The more I worked on it, the more fun I had, and this surprised me. And the more I work on it, the more fun I have, and the more serious I become about it.
Due to a project I am working on that relates to my art and hobbies, I have been doing some simple programming. Programming is another thing I did while I was modeling for MM2. It was always simple things, mostly HTML and CSS. I actually first started learning basic programming with Visual Basic back when I was 11. I attempted to learn C++ but it was way too complicated for me. I was never good at anything of these things, but I really enjoyed them and had lots of fun.
I guess what I am trying to say with all of this, besides just sharing some things about myself, is that I recently discovered that, some of the things that I stopped doing, I still enjoy. Even though I gave up on some of them years ago (like programming), I still really want to be good at them. I still would LOVE to be very good at programming. And I think I forgot this. It's interesting how I sometimes forget something about myself and then rediscover it later on.
So I am starting out with programming simple, with HTML, CSS, Apophysis/Pascal, and Javascript.
I'm not sure if it is possible to gain the level of skill that I want with programming. I am much more capable now than I was when I was a kid, but that's not saying much. Looking back, I am...stunned at how horrendously bad my brain worked. But I will do what I can to improve my health and my cognition. And I will continue to work hard.
What I am doing now--teaching myself things that I want to learn, things that I need to know, and things that will allow me to get more out of like--is very important to me. And I want to be able to spend as much time as I possibly can every single day doing this, regardless of what kind of sacrifices I have to make to be able to do this.
This is kind of a trial run, for when I have a blog/website of my own. I thought about using my DeviantArt page, but I don't receive comments on journal entries there.
So, for my first entry:
Honestly it's not that I don't have enough time, it's that my brain doesn't function good enough to accomplish things as quickly as other people. But this won't stop me, and one day I hope to be able to accomplish more, in the same amount of time.
As the the tittle says, there are many, many things that I have to learn. Many things related to my art and hobbies, and many things not related to my hobbies. I'm just going to stick with my art and hobbies during this journal entry.
Back when I was a kid (ages 12-18), I used to create poor quality 3D models for a computer game called Midtown Madness 2. I stopped around the age of 18 or so and started spending my time doing other things, but I always thought about returning to 3D modeling and create higher quality things than I did for MM2 (MM2 is very limited due to when it was made and how it was programmed). Recently, out of nowhere, I decided to check and see if the main MM2 sites were still online. I was surprised to see that they were.
After browsing them for awhile, I decided, spurt of the moment, to start modeling another track for MM2. The more I worked on it, the more fun I had, and this surprised me. And the more I work on it, the more fun I have, and the more serious I become about it.
Due to a project I am working on that relates to my art and hobbies, I have been doing some simple programming. Programming is another thing I did while I was modeling for MM2. It was always simple things, mostly HTML and CSS. I actually first started learning basic programming with Visual Basic back when I was 11. I attempted to learn C++ but it was way too complicated for me. I was never good at anything of these things, but I really enjoyed them and had lots of fun.
I guess what I am trying to say with all of this, besides just sharing some things about myself, is that I recently discovered that, some of the things that I stopped doing, I still enjoy. Even though I gave up on some of them years ago (like programming), I still really want to be good at them. I still would LOVE to be very good at programming. And I think I forgot this. It's interesting how I sometimes forget something about myself and then rediscover it later on.
So I am starting out with programming simple, with HTML, CSS, Apophysis/Pascal, and Javascript.
I'm not sure if it is possible to gain the level of skill that I want with programming. I am much more capable now than I was when I was a kid, but that's not saying much. Looking back, I am...stunned at how horrendously bad my brain worked. But I will do what I can to improve my health and my cognition. And I will continue to work hard.
What I am doing now--teaching myself things that I want to learn, things that I need to know, and things that will allow me to get more out of like--is very important to me. And I want to be able to spend as much time as I possibly can every single day doing this, regardless of what kind of sacrifices I have to make to be able to do this.