element506
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Hey Everyone,
This is my first post about ocd ever. im surprised that ive never been on an ocd forum before untill now. Probably because I dont wanna become hooked on this site like how I check my email all the time ha!
Im a 23 year old dude from jersey. Ive had ocd since 3rd grade and its been on n off to a degree through out then. It was at its worst when i was in 6th grade where it was actually more physical compulsions than obsessions and the past couple years the obsessions have been pretty bad and not as much the physical routines.
Just only a few months ago i realised how my ocd is linked to so many other things. Just recently i think i may have bdd and became anorexic a little. Ive even been a little bulimic. And found out recently its common with ocd.
Theres so many things I can rant on but I wont do it all in this post! Ha
One thing that pissed me off was I found out recently ocd can be linked to creativity. My whole life I've been an amazing artist and musician and it defines who I am..
My band is really getting good and I feel like I could never take medication cause antidepressants dull creativity. So its like i can choose my creativity which defines who i am, or take medicine and be free...
Also I have in the past taken antidepressant ssri's and didnt get too much help! When I was in 6th grade, zoloft did help with the compulsions but when I was on it I got all weird and antisocial.
Also recently I havent been on medication in YEARS and in college for only a month i tried prozac and got really antisocial. It also didnt help my ocd.
This site is sicialphobiaworld.com, and everyone says ocd is all social phobia but id say im rather outgoing..
Either way, I feel like anitdepressants dont do anything and when I do take them it makes me weird and it would dull my creativity. So i guess Im screwed
The past year I actually became an alcoholic...and its not just college partyin but theres been times i get bombed by myself lol
Also when I went to partys I wouldn't drink a little I would drink till I was blacked out drunk.
All of my best friends smoke weed but i dont like it obviously cause it increases axiety. I feel like drinking is my only cure...but its only a temp fix and obviously will have health problems down the road
Just the past year I started opening up to some people how I have ocd. I didnt even tell my best friend of my whole life about it until last year. Recently Ive been telling people who Im not even really close with. I dont know why Im feeling more comfortable about doing it, but I find peoples reactions arent as big of a deal as i thought it would be.
Wow I said I wouldnt type too much but I guess I did! My bad ha. There were alot of other things I wanted to say.
Oh by the way, Ive only talked to one person ever who has ocd so its cool to come onto this forum
This is my first post about ocd ever. im surprised that ive never been on an ocd forum before untill now. Probably because I dont wanna become hooked on this site like how I check my email all the time ha!
Im a 23 year old dude from jersey. Ive had ocd since 3rd grade and its been on n off to a degree through out then. It was at its worst when i was in 6th grade where it was actually more physical compulsions than obsessions and the past couple years the obsessions have been pretty bad and not as much the physical routines.
Just only a few months ago i realised how my ocd is linked to so many other things. Just recently i think i may have bdd and became anorexic a little. Ive even been a little bulimic. And found out recently its common with ocd.
Theres so many things I can rant on but I wont do it all in this post! Ha
One thing that pissed me off was I found out recently ocd can be linked to creativity. My whole life I've been an amazing artist and musician and it defines who I am..
My band is really getting good and I feel like I could never take medication cause antidepressants dull creativity. So its like i can choose my creativity which defines who i am, or take medicine and be free...
Also I have in the past taken antidepressant ssri's and didnt get too much help! When I was in 6th grade, zoloft did help with the compulsions but when I was on it I got all weird and antisocial.
Also recently I havent been on medication in YEARS and in college for only a month i tried prozac and got really antisocial. It also didnt help my ocd.
This site is sicialphobiaworld.com, and everyone says ocd is all social phobia but id say im rather outgoing..
Either way, I feel like anitdepressants dont do anything and when I do take them it makes me weird and it would dull my creativity. So i guess Im screwed
The past year I actually became an alcoholic...and its not just college partyin but theres been times i get bombed by myself lol
Also when I went to partys I wouldn't drink a little I would drink till I was blacked out drunk.
All of my best friends smoke weed but i dont like it obviously cause it increases axiety. I feel like drinking is my only cure...but its only a temp fix and obviously will have health problems down the road
Just the past year I started opening up to some people how I have ocd. I didnt even tell my best friend of my whole life about it until last year. Recently Ive been telling people who Im not even really close with. I dont know why Im feeling more comfortable about doing it, but I find peoples reactions arent as big of a deal as i thought it would be.
Wow I said I wouldnt type too much but I guess I did! My bad ha. There were alot of other things I wanted to say.
Oh by the way, Ive only talked to one person ever who has ocd so its cool to come onto this forum