It is a self-wind-up question every day. I think it's the equivalent of suicide or keep going.
I recognised something I really need. A punchbag. My regular exercise routine is OK but I need to improve it. A boxing ring I saw in Bedford. If I can't, the best I could do would be a game of squash. My buddy stopped playing after he got married and has a kid.
If anything where I live, inside or outside, could support a fullsize punchbag reliably, I'd love it. but it might be prone to theft if I left it out there - lamp post or tree in a park.
But then I might want a knot round my neck, and kick away the chair, or soapbox. Private or public, I might go for the outside, and leave a message on the floor