Feels like I'm starting to get it, and get better!

[206Raider]

Well, even though this week hasn't been all too exciting I finally feel like I'm getting better just as I hoped I would for the new year. I realized, if I work hard, and eat better, clean up after myself and take care of myself and have a different outlook on things in life, things can be different. You can't be positive all the time but good days and bad days are all psychological.


Everyone here helps out a lot, I "met" a lot of really good people (you all know who you are) that I feel understand me completely which I didn't feel in real life and still don't but I'm working on that. For awhile, I, in a sense, gave up last year and didn't really care about anything at all, myself or where my life is going, I didn't feel anybody else did either. I didn't want to go back to school or get a job but now I am going back to school pretty soon and am focusing on getting a job and I did go to a counselor again for advice and she seems to think I'm on the correct path as well.

Now, I forced myself to change for the year or else my life will continue to be a mess and it's working so far, I mean I was afraid to make a facebook, becuase I thought I would have like 5 friends now I'm getting messages everyday from people I haven't seen in years asking me how I'm doing and how they miss seeing me. I realized I built up this image of myself in my head that's completely false just becuase I'm so unsure of myself sometimes.

There is one person I am especially thankful for having in my life now and if it wasn't for her help and support I may still be in the doldrums. I don't have to say who, some of you already know but she will know! So Thank you!

I want to thank whoever reads this lol, ya'll help me. I will be here to help any of you as well, as I know this is just a good day, and I will still have bad days but I'm gonna try my hardest to have my good ones outweigh the bad and hopefully the bad days are never too bad.

 

[gio289]

Sounds good G. Keep it up and reach for the stars, cuz aint sh-it holding us back but us. Glad for u man, n keep doin ur thing!!

 

[206Raider]

Yeah man, Thanks! I'm figuring out that, I got a ton to learn still but if I want to make it better I can't depend on anybody else to do it for me. Just take one step at a time and I was the only one holding me back. This year I'm gonna throw myself back into the fire and hope I come out without any burns lol.

 

[gio289]

lol nah the burns are cool, just make sure u look at those scars proudly man, cuz u made it

 

[Kat]

That's great to hear and don't feel like you can't make any mistakes along the way. When, I hear certain people say she's doing a lot better, there's some anxiety that statement in itself brings, because it sets an expectation somewhat as well because I know I still don't feel 100% on the inside but the main thing is not to give up despite all the obstacles that may try to stop us. And this time your doing it with a great person in your corner.

 

[206Raider]

Yeah and nobody with SA is ever all the way better in my opinion it's just learning to love what you got. People in general have anxiety, it just that I don't want to let it dictate my life, I expect to have my ups and downs. I just have to stop worrying about when my next down is going to be when I'm happy and enjoy what I have. I think I can do that, one step at a time.