Dark angel
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I'm getting stressed and I'm really sad right now. I feel like I want to cry but I can't. Next week I'm going to take an important test that could define pretty much my future and my dreams of a lifetime but I know I'm going to fail because today I took a practice test and I didn't do well. This practice tests are pretty accurate. This exam is an standarized test for a health professional school admision. I've been studying for 2 and half months but from time to time I took some breaks because I really got quite tired of constantly reading. Now I feel that it was a mistake. I shouldn't have done it. I should kept on going even if I was tired. And now I cannot cancel the test date, I have to take it. My mom kept saying do not cancel it, she said that If I didn't face the test now and I kept posponing it ,I would never know what I would have to fight against and what I could expect from it. I understand her point and she is right. I was really supposed to take this test back in september but back then I had no time to study at all because I was still at the university. Now, I got to study but the amount of material is really overwhelming. Either way, I don't want that day to come and I'm already feeling like such a failure. If this doesn't work I would've wasted 6 years of my life studying for a pretty useless bachelor's degree and I have absolutely no work experience at the moment because I spent all those "effing" years studying. If this doesn't work, I would have to start from scratch. It scares me. I know that If I don't do well now, I can re-take it. But, what if I never do well? I don't see myself doing another thing. ::
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