Hi everyone, it’s been years since I’ve posted regularly on this website. Tonight I need all of your help in convincing me that my life is worth while. I have a close friend of two years who i did many things with including taking trips to New York City. She’s a single mother and a very wonderful person. I grew very close to her during those two years. But I always knew In the back of my mind that she wpuld eventually find someone because she’s really pretty and she has a great personality. Well two weeks ago my worst nightmare happened and a person who I work with asked her out and she accepted. When she told me that she was going out on a date she seemed really enthusiastic and really into this person. It was my worst nightmare come true. So I decided to take a risk and tell her my feelings for her. Because I felt I had nothing to lose. She was headed toward being in a relationship with this person. And I wanted Her to know my feelings for her before it was too late. When I told her how I felt about her she seemed disappointed and upset. She told me that we can No longer be friends. I see her at work almost every day. I also see her new boyfriend at work almost every day as well. It makes it very difficult to get over her. I have been single for mostly 17 years. I’m not particularly attractive, I’m short balding and my teeth are pretty bad. I don’t have any confidence with women at all. I feel like there’s no hope for me to find anybody in my life. I feel like I’m destined to be alone forever. I know that is a pretty common complaint online. Professionally I am in a dead-end job. I am a lawyer but my job is pretty crappy. Lawyers don’t all make a lot of money.It’s pretty stressful as well. I see my future is work related stress and nothing to look forward too. Ever since this happened I have come very close to thinking about killing myself. I don’t think I would actually go through with it. Because I’m kind of a chicken. And I don’t want to cause pain to my parents. If there was a painless way to simply not exist, I would do that. I just feel hopeless and my life is going nowhere.