Aphrodite2854
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I FEEL LIKE IM HAVING A PROBLEM THAT NO ONE HAS SEEMED TO ADDRESS, SO IM WONDERING WHATS WRONG WITH ME OF COURSE. FOR ABOUT 6 MONTHS NOW IM SCARED THAT IM GOING TO GO CRAZY, OR GET SCHIZOPHRENIA MORE SPECIFICALLY. I CONSTANTLY WORRY AND LOOK FOR THINGS THAT WOULD MAKE ME CRAZY. LIKE SOMETIMES I WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT REALLY OUT OF IT BUT MY MIND AND HEART IS RACING, THEN I TURN ON THE TV AND THE PEOPLE LOOK LIKE THEY ARE IN FAST FORWARD! IT SCARES ME AND I BEGIN TO THINK THAT IM HALLUCINATING OR SOMETHING. ALSO, I HAVE HAD THIS FEELING LATELY THAT SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME, LIKE IM NOT EVER GOING TO BE NORMAL AGAIN AND THAT IM NOT MYSELF. I DONT FEEL LIKE IM IN MY "NORMAL" WORLD AND THAT IM LOSING CONTROL. I FEEL LIKE THIS FEELING IS SOMETHING THAT NO ONE HAS AND ITS ONLY ME BECAUSE IM LOSING IT. I JUST DONT FEEL "NORMAL" I GUESS. DOES ANYONE ELSE HAVE THIS? IVE HAD OCD SINCE I WAS 7 AND IM ALMOST 24. ALSO, I STARTED HAVING THIS FEAR OF GOING CRAZY EVER SINCE I STARTED WORKING AT A MENTAL HOSPITAL 6 MONTHS AGO. I WOULD APPRECIATE ANY HELP