So basically it's like I expect to be rejected, stabbed in the back, abandoned, and just generally treated like crap by people. Constantly waiting for the sting after the smile, insult after the compliment. I guess I've become so used to not being truly liked or valued that I've taught myself to expect bad treatment. Quite a few people have led me to believe they liked me and would be there for me only to be unkind towards me and turn their backs on me in the end. I feel like it's only a matter of time before I'm hated and it blows my mind when it seems people genuinely like me and have an interest in being involved with me for a long period of time. I think to myself "how are you not sick and tired of me already? How is it that you don't totally abhor me yet? What in the world...?" I dunno, just felt like I needed to type that out. I got emotional wounds, man. If anyone can relate to feeling this way, feel free to share.
Last edited: