Orion's Hound
Active member
I recently started getting in shape. Walking, Working up to running. They say when you are mad to go exercise. Makes it go away. Lately, I noticed that about ten minutes into my exercise I begin fuming. Normally, I am almost impossible to make angry and am not an angry person but exercising brings out unsettling thoughts of petty, childish vengeance usually directed at people I haven't thought about in ages (like a friend on Facebook who suddenly stopped responding to my messages or a girl who looked at me odd when I tried smiling at her for example).
The odd thoughts are vast in scope and bizarre, normally glorifying some violent or heinous action on my part like breaking someones legs, burning places down, blowing things up, viciously smashing a head open with something heavy, etc. Needless to say, they are disturbing me because they pop in without warning and only ever while exercising. For more background, exercise has never been something I associate with anything negative, really. I wasn't punished with it.
Anyone else ever have this? Any ideas as to what this could be? Could it be related to my shyness and anxiety/mistrust of people? It seems backwards from how it should be based on what people say about exercise actually making anger go away.
I recently joined the forum and looked for a post concerning this specific issue as per the rules of this place but didn't find it. Apologies if I missed it somehow.
The odd thoughts are vast in scope and bizarre, normally glorifying some violent or heinous action on my part like breaking someones legs, burning places down, blowing things up, viciously smashing a head open with something heavy, etc. Needless to say, they are disturbing me because they pop in without warning and only ever while exercising. For more background, exercise has never been something I associate with anything negative, really. I wasn't punished with it.
Anyone else ever have this? Any ideas as to what this could be? Could it be related to my shyness and anxiety/mistrust of people? It seems backwards from how it should be based on what people say about exercise actually making anger go away.
I recently joined the forum and looked for a post concerning this specific issue as per the rules of this place but didn't find it. Apologies if I missed it somehow.