CaffeinePlease
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My monster finally has a name. I was watching Grey's Anatomy on Netflix and came across the episode in season two. If you have erythrophobia..you know which one I'm referring to. I sat there in shock. I was staring at myself. All these years.. I knew I had anxiety, I knew I blushed, but I thought that it was something that was extremely rare.. and that there was nothing I could do about it.
I've been taking klonipin since I was 16 years old (I am now 26). This drug is wonderful. I never leave home without it. I always take one if I know I'm going to be in a stressful situation. On a first date, a job interview.. it makes me feel calm. But I've realized that I don't want to have to rely on a pill just to feel calm, or normal for that matter. Severe facial blushing, as you know, is quite embarrassing. I can't laugh, get mad, see a guy I find extremely attractive without every single person around me noticing. "Are you ok?" "You're turning really red." "Are you sunburned?" I've had several opportunities for promotions at work, but denied them..because of this. I hate this. I feel like I'm a prisoner in my own body. I want to be able to see a cute guy, smile, and talk to him without blushing. I want to deal with an upset customer at work, stand my ground, and not let them be able to see that I'm nervous or uncomfortable. I want a life. I've contemplated about possibly looking into hypnotherapy.. but now that I've heard about the ETS surgery.. I've really been giving it some thought. Does anyone have any success stories at all when dealing with this disorder?
I've been taking klonipin since I was 16 years old (I am now 26). This drug is wonderful. I never leave home without it. I always take one if I know I'm going to be in a stressful situation. On a first date, a job interview.. it makes me feel calm. But I've realized that I don't want to have to rely on a pill just to feel calm, or normal for that matter. Severe facial blushing, as you know, is quite embarrassing. I can't laugh, get mad, see a guy I find extremely attractive without every single person around me noticing. "Are you ok?" "You're turning really red." "Are you sunburned?" I've had several opportunities for promotions at work, but denied them..because of this. I hate this. I feel like I'm a prisoner in my own body. I want to be able to see a cute guy, smile, and talk to him without blushing. I want to deal with an upset customer at work, stand my ground, and not let them be able to see that I'm nervous or uncomfortable. I want a life. I've contemplated about possibly looking into hypnotherapy.. but now that I've heard about the ETS surgery.. I've really been giving it some thought. Does anyone have any success stories at all when dealing with this disorder?