eating dinner with family

C

Clown

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I know it should be normal to dinner with your family
but im little bit strange , I always go to my room with my food
I have done this for years so its more of a habit.
I want to eat with my family but it feels so strange
to suddenly eat with my family.
the hiding in my room has gone so far that I have absolutly almost
zero connection or bond with my family...it makes me cry
how far I have let it go.
should I just go eat dinner with them and in a few months it doenst
feel strange anymore ?
 
C

Clown

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@ nathiel My socialphobia started back then and was ashamed of my behavior and also was sort of game addicted back then + depressed
 
C

Clown

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I did it , no so bad after all . I think im on my way to have a better relationship with my family. My mind is my word enemy.. how can it be so difficult to just sit down and talk . I was sweating like I had run just the marathon...but this is the first step towards my recovery... at first I just wanted to die and that was the path I was going to ended up..but Im afraid of doing it what if I fail... so I need to grab my self by the balls give my self a punch in the face and Wake up and don't be so ****ing coward who telling himself that he can't do anything
 
Hoppy

Hoppy

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I've sort of given up hope of enjoying it when I got screamed at for saying I'm not hungry.

It is now 4 years and 2 months since I've last eaten alone.
 
Iluv

Iluv

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Well if you feel comfortable with it then I say go for it! :) . Hope it works out for you!
 
C

Clown

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yes thnx for the support everybody,
I need to think pass the doom gloud and mental fog of depression.
Thinks can change im still only 21.. you know the america dream
that would be never possible for me sa & gad doesn''t suddenly dissapear
and It will probably hunt me for the rest of my life and the thoughtst how it
could have been. but in the end we all die and in 100 years nobody would even know
I existed so even if I make big fool out of my self nobody''s cares and it will be forgotten in time. maybe I won't make many changes and will end up suicide over 10 years but atleast I tried it and did my best.. maybe maybe... lol I can better stop thinking about the maybe and ''what if'' and just do it.
thnx for the support love you all
 
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