dannyboy65
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Well I am in a resident care working course. It's where I look after people in hospitals, group homes, senior homes, and peoples houses who can't look after themselves completely. I love the course, and I love helping people. I used to be extremely introverted, but over the past year or so I've been becoming a good mix of extrovert and introvert.
I just find it so hard to fit in though with my classmates. I want them to like me and talk to me or include me in their conversations. But the thing is they talk about their families or kids or relationships. Where as I don't really have a close relationship with my family or have kids. I have a girlfriend but I don't talk about us to my classmates to be professional. I will mention some things about her but I won't go into details about her or anything.
I think though that people find me weird. There are 19 girls in my class and me and 3 other guys. I find I'm becoming to be a big loner again and I don't want to go back down that path. So I push myself out of my comfort zone a lot and try to talk about their interests.
On the bright side though I think I am making progress. I notice now some of my classmates will sit with me in the cafeteria if I am around and talk to me which is nice. I also noticed I get along much better with one of my older classmates who is in her 50's. So I am doing something right I think. Hopefully by the end of the year they would like to talk to me more.
Even today though my teacher was talking to me after class because I was the last one leaving. She knows of my autism and mental illness cause I told her just in case I start to struggle. She told me that she noticed that the class has been very good and understanding to me, which I noticed when she said that. I just think maybe it's my paranoid schizophrenia causing me to think this. I guess I will keep you guys updated how this social life at school goes but so far I have been making progress, but I want to make just a little more for my own personal goal.
I just find it so hard to fit in though with my classmates. I want them to like me and talk to me or include me in their conversations. But the thing is they talk about their families or kids or relationships. Where as I don't really have a close relationship with my family or have kids. I have a girlfriend but I don't talk about us to my classmates to be professional. I will mention some things about her but I won't go into details about her or anything.
I think though that people find me weird. There are 19 girls in my class and me and 3 other guys. I find I'm becoming to be a big loner again and I don't want to go back down that path. So I push myself out of my comfort zone a lot and try to talk about their interests.
On the bright side though I think I am making progress. I notice now some of my classmates will sit with me in the cafeteria if I am around and talk to me which is nice. I also noticed I get along much better with one of my older classmates who is in her 50's. So I am doing something right I think. Hopefully by the end of the year they would like to talk to me more.
Even today though my teacher was talking to me after class because I was the last one leaving. She knows of my autism and mental illness cause I told her just in case I start to struggle. She told me that she noticed that the class has been very good and understanding to me, which I noticed when she said that. I just think maybe it's my paranoid schizophrenia causing me to think this. I guess I will keep you guys updated how this social life at school goes but so far I have been making progress, but I want to make just a little more for my own personal goal.