I've come to the realization that I don't like dogs, and it makes me feel like a bad person. I find them to be extremely frustrating, and everything they do I find infuriating. I hate that they will sit when I tell them to sit, and if they don't sit then that's even worse. I hate the way they smell, and I hate the way they follow me around, constantly looking up to me for love and approval. I hate the way they unconditionally love anybody who will pet them or give them a treat. I hate that they mope when I get mad at them. I really, really hate it when they get excited. I think I have a pathological aversion to dogs. They bring out the very worst in me.
This wouldn't be a problem except that my fiance absolutely loves dogs. In fact, when it comes to personalities, he's a lot like a dog (gregarious, easy-going, loyal to a fault) and I'm much more like a cat (temperamental, selective, independent to a fault). We tried having a dog last winter, but it only lasted a few weeks before I cracked and we had to find a new home for her. Recently I began fostering a dog because I thought I liked her, but after a few days in my house I began to hate her. Every time I get up to do anything she jumps up and follows me. My cats could tear the house apart and I wouldn't care, but if she does one bad thing I feel like I'm stressed beyond my limits. She is a good dog, but that almost makes it worse for me. I have absolutely no reason to dislike her, but I really really do. It's strange and I don't understand it, which is the worst part for me.
I'm trying to learn to tolerate her, because I know my fiance loves her and has been wanting a dog very badly. It makes him happy, and that's a good thing. I'm also angry that I can't seem to make myself into a dog person, because I picture him being with someone who loves dogs. I know he would love me even if I told him how much I can't stand dogs and that I never want to have another one in my house. But part of me just desperately wants to be what I think he wants. Which is wrong, I know, and I'm ashamed to type it.
I'm not really looking for answers or advice really, I just wanted to get this off my chest and try to make some sense of it. If anyone else out there dislikes dogs that might make me feel better.
This wouldn't be a problem except that my fiance absolutely loves dogs. In fact, when it comes to personalities, he's a lot like a dog (gregarious, easy-going, loyal to a fault) and I'm much more like a cat (temperamental, selective, independent to a fault). We tried having a dog last winter, but it only lasted a few weeks before I cracked and we had to find a new home for her. Recently I began fostering a dog because I thought I liked her, but after a few days in my house I began to hate her. Every time I get up to do anything she jumps up and follows me. My cats could tear the house apart and I wouldn't care, but if she does one bad thing I feel like I'm stressed beyond my limits. She is a good dog, but that almost makes it worse for me. I have absolutely no reason to dislike her, but I really really do. It's strange and I don't understand it, which is the worst part for me.
I'm trying to learn to tolerate her, because I know my fiance loves her and has been wanting a dog very badly. It makes him happy, and that's a good thing. I'm also angry that I can't seem to make myself into a dog person, because I picture him being with someone who loves dogs. I know he would love me even if I told him how much I can't stand dogs and that I never want to have another one in my house. But part of me just desperately wants to be what I think he wants. Which is wrong, I know, and I'm ashamed to type it.
I'm not really looking for answers or advice really, I just wanted to get this off my chest and try to make some sense of it. If anyone else out there dislikes dogs that might make me feel better.
